The Realization.....

Todays the 18th September 2011 and I'm currently sitting up on a mattress at Andrews(Laurence Olivier Jr) house whilst Haydn, Andrew and Corey are all asleep..*Andrew your snoring*...

We've been having this, well what I like to call Monologue Bootcamp where since yesterday we have limited our activities that do not involve anything to do with acting  in particular monologues...sweat blood and monologues

This weeks been pretty weird, I've realized I don't really have as strong as a relationship with my year at BRIT  School as a whole/groups as I thought I did. I have really good relationships with a lot of people individually or in small groups but I feel a lot of people when around a bigger group might slightly change, and say things that may be out of character or be swayed into saying things that I  don't believe they mean,(Imagine if they done something productive instead) just a thought just an opinion *3.2.1. START BITCHING* <<Trust me it will happen, and if you think for a slight moment it's your group or it's you then it most likely is you....

yup I've also realized well I realized this a long time ago but my blog, Facebook and TWITTER is a source for a few people to twist things or maybe see things how they want to see things and not actually reading whats there, like Will Smith would say "they're looking for something more complex..which is not there" <<and by doing that guess what they do..*BING* start bitching or saying things things that just arent true which is basically bitching...

For example two days ago I was pretty annoyed and upset my friend(<<could of made that bold, but didn't) was using the same monologue as me, and I vented my frustration on twitter WITHOUT mentioning his name or "being mean" or having a bitchfest but yeah basically I was upset cause I worked so hard on finding this monologue/play and he has just randomly asked for it and said he would find a new ANOTHER one in the same play, but didn't and is using mine blah blah blah and cause were going for the same character with the same monologue its like...*People will disagree but its TRUE* As actors we have ego's and and are selfish because we have a belief that what we can bring a uniqueness and freshness to a performance if given what we wanted in this case a character/part also because we wanted to be constantly challenged..<<Even teachers have said this *<<why did i feel the need to back up what I say with teachers :s * So basically I was talking to My friend Corey (@CoreyTDD <<Writer for BBC and Channel 4 follow him) and he was comforting me and telling me not to worry and people began to get involved like we were having a bitchfest when we were clearly NOT like I said earlier, "not actually reading whats there" and blowing things out of proportion. Another person tweeted "allow all this indirect shit" which is the MOST HYPOCRITICAL THING I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE..If you asked me for an example for what Indirect means that would be the perfect definition for it. But that's an example of how twitter the place created for people to speak there mind, vent their opinion within 140 characters is now a source for people to twist things or blow things out of proportion, when I was just having a harmless conversation with nothing had not been said to the person in subject. I Still see this person as a friend and wish him the best....

The last Realization is probably how much I want to be in Angel In America Part One....as Prior

Remaining to what I said with Shiarone Daley(who has left Brit Now) I will leave BRIT with few friends in my strand or in my year,Wish it wasn't the case, but I'm sure it is, cause I say a lot of things that people don't want to hear...maybe I speak too quickly and will just say what's on mind....I made a cheeseball status the other week ago(most of my statuses are cheesy) "Feel Like Kanye West, Liked By A Few Hated By Many....Hopefully loved by elite" *Yes I Did just get GASSED at my own quote*

We The Next....

Back to the blogging every two weeks, cause I'm back at BRIT, thats a promise.

Erm So I've had one of those weeks where I've just been reflecting and feeling inspired. Started with going to the cinema, to see the Rise Of The Planet of the Apes..Watched it? I recommend it really good film, bit moving off that. Just the thought of knowing thats what I want to do is really inspiring from seeing the adverts to the actual film. I want people to come to shows/cinemas to come see my work or work that I'm involved in. Really is inspiring gets me emotional and shit lol.

The next time was watching Inside the Actors studio, if your not watching it watch it! It's my favourite TV programme and gets to me everytime so more inspiring moments. Actors like Josh Brolin, Kate Winslet, Will Smith, Don Cheadle, Colin Firth, Sean Penn, Robert De Niro, Ralph Fiense feeding me with so much knowledge is really a blessing and hopefully I can be in that position in years to come.

I always say on my twitter...WE THE NEXT ONES! The New Generation the new kids on the block, were the future Presidents, Prime Ministers, Cleaners, Music Producers, Singers, Actors, Priests..whatever it is and the opportunities are out there, we just gotta take it, make it ours.

Basically this blog is just me saying again how much I want to do this and how much I will go for it. One of the most inspiring things I heard was from the TV Show and it was from Don Cheadle he said "Would I reccommend acting no, don't do it CHANGE Carreers...okay? Now if you considered that then this career isn't for you"

^^ and I reckon that goes for everything in life no matter what career your deciding to take, do something you love cause that no isn't gonna effect you or make you question....

9/11 Respect

Just want say R.I.P. to all those people who lost their lives and the families and friends affected by what happened in New York city 10 years ago, and to the brave civilians and national services who helped people You are all Heroes.

Terrorist thought going through with these bombs and acts of evil would break us, they were extremely wrong..It only made us Stronger.