I Feel It

I watched Blue Valentine & cried.....and cried.....and cried, sorry really needed to get that off my chest.

Just on way back from watching Dark Knight Rises with one of my closest friends, practically family Percy(newly announced by IMDB one of the Top 12 British Teenage actors - http://www.imdb.com/list/6DRgkdq1V6Y/)-Percy that shoutout was nice right? lool.... anyways both of us left the cinema feeling inspired and speechless, telling each other one day we shall work with Christopher Nolan. You just get that feeling, hard to explain.

Anyways I've pretty much had my first working week with my new agency and as what you could say a professional actor? 3 auditions in one week, one being a recall for one I had done earlier that week, the reason for this blog was due to me not getting the part at a recall and me realizing why I wouldn't get it as soon as I left the audition room. The reason being majorly was because I couldn't get this one note at first which was quite technical and something you WOULD learn by going to drama school, that's when it HIT me, I was choosing to enter this extremely competitive industry without drama school training..................................................................................................................................................................................................and I'm excited because that's just IGNITED my fuel, my desire to succeed to prove people wrong to really show people I can do whatever I put my mind to, and that's what I have been doing all my life, proving people wrong and showing them the mind can do incredible things. I told Percy earlier today "I feel it, I feel like it's not going to take too long for me to get my first role under my new agency and to run with this torch cause I'm ready and I FEEL IT, I feel like I'm learning quickly from my mistakes and to some that statement will sound arrogant, to some, delusional, but to me....it's my belief and that's what keeps me going.

There's an image that I've uploaded to this post. I wrote on this scrap piece paper last year, from that exact moment a 5 YEAR plan, if you can't read it, this is the plan;

6)Keep working hard and believing
5)Get a good part in common Ground
4)Get into showcase and get a good agent
3) To begin to make movements, to be noticed
2)Perform in West End
1) Become an upcoming film actor and bring friends along.

So far I've done the first 3(4,5,6) - I Told you...I FEEL IT

Let's Run With This Torch....

My secondary school drama teacher who I'm really close with and who I've always kept up to date with, text me this, when I told her the good news "Great things coming your way... I can feel it in my bones !!".....

Here we are once again on a tube, with no earphones/headphones with someone sitting opposite me starring at me not realising I know they are starring at me...awkward. I've just taken a break from reading the book "How I live now" by Meg Rossoff, fantastic book (they're making a feature film out of it starring Saoirse Ronan, being directed by the AMAZING Kevin MacDonald).  Anyways continuing from the last blog, I got offers from Agents, Wohoo! Go Jesse Go Jesse Go Jesse Go Go! And this week and the end of last week has  been me pretty much just meeting with them and trying to find out as much as possible as I can on them and their possible ideas for me and my career. Yesterday, I got a phonecall from a certain agency I really felt a connection with who I had a meeting with earlier that day, the phonecall went along the lines of "we would like to  represent you Jesse" and I can't really remember the rest apart from me screaming like a girl who was seeing Justin bieber, this is happening whilst I'm at the zoo, and yes people are there, so you can imagine their faces,  and theres me running  around the gorilla section(who were probably starting too) with the phone in my hand screaming, close to tears. I guess that was the moment I realised the hard work was beginning to pay off and I was taking another step closer to my dream with a group of people who have a great belief & vision for me....

So yeah that is the good news, thought I'd start back to front.... I'm hoping the great things are coming my way too....I really am

Signing out

J x