Wanted someone to talk to

I Know I wrote one yesterday but I just felt like writing.

Yes I did go back to my bookshop again...>>>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q7V2U_Jyl_o   Lol everytime I go there this song comes up in my head. The people there see me so often they began to speak today to me in more depth asking me how I come so often was I getting ready or looking for a showcase piece? I just explained to them That I was just passionate about acting and was beginning to look for drama school monologues cause I'm getting in on first time. She smiled and recommended a play to me that is quite new So that's another book to the collection(20 books in a week and half) Crazy money(It's money from an advert I done a while back) but I feel like this is all money I will make back.

I wrote this blog, cause I was bored, wanted to write my feelings down on the tube when only one earplug of my earphones would work, or my ipod was DEAD battery and now...well I write these posts weekly cause I enjoy doing it, people like reading it, which is a bonus, but also that a lot of people relate to me but are sometimes scarred to admit it and put it out there.

Someone attempted to call me cocky today and my reaction was "WHAT" lol but I can see sometimes how that can be seen or how my persona can come across. Hopefully you can see by reading these blogs I'm not. There's a thin line between self confidence which I think I have and cockyness which I am not. I guess I'm just outspoken about things I see and want to do with my life. I'm Willing to say and predict things, willing to believe in what other people see as a risk and what I see as a pretty normal route. There's this amazing monologue/poem at the end of Coach Carter(Amazing film recommend it) and I thought I understood it before, but only now do I really understand it..give it a read(below. Yep this was just another one of those random posts and I need to go over my script for a play I'm doing and also need to read this book by Stella Adler. So talk soon World...

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadiquit,
our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
Your playing small does not serve the world, there is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people wont feel insecure around you. We were all ment to shine as children do, its not just in some of us it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we uncontiously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated by our own fears, our presence atomatically liberates others."

This Is Not The Title...actuallly it is

To The Lady At The Samuel French Theatre Bookshop With Short Black Hair & Glasses your AMAZING! 

So I've been meaning to write a blog, but have been keeping myself Busy, thats good right?(Hears a voice yes it is)

So basically on the 25th & 26th of July the BRIT School For Performing Arts Toured our productions of Henry VI Trilogy in Stratford Upon Avon(Shakespeare's Home) at the Dell Outdoor Theatre. It was a really amazing theatre, 1) cause were performing and we(actors) get a buzz off performing and 2)were touring our show and 3) cause its for the RSC(Royal Shakespeare Company) those are like 3 amazing things all in one opportunity.


Performing outside was an interesting challenge cause Ive actually never done it before and there is so many things to think about when performing, with loudness being a pivotal one, but yeah basically It was just another one of those moments where you get excited for the future and the love for the art really comes out. You go back home thinking WOW completely RANDOM people watched your show, people from another part of the country enjoyed themselves watching your show and these are things that will be occurring more often in a few years time(Movies and Plays). It's like as the days go on and on the passion grows and grows, and the determination and the work rate thickens and thickens. Some People are born 100% with IT the acting(naturally talented at it) and some people aren't but have a love for it and work for it and work hard, till it eventually becomes a Skill, and that overcomes talent, but no matter how the art has come to you, both ways you still need to work for it to become a skill.

We also went to see Dunsinane by David Greig(Amazing writrer, really passionate too about Scotland check his other plays) at the Swan Theatre in Stratford Upon Avon. Its an amazing play, I had already watched it in 2010(last year) at Hampstead Theatre, my friend Jay was in it(Shout Out To Jay Sentrosi) he was in the chorus alongside another guy called Jeremy Irvine...know the name? Well you will soon. This guy is starring in War Horse being Directed by thee Steven Spilberg, Acting alongside Helen Bowem Carter & is also in another film in production called Now Is Good, acting alongside Kayla Scodelario(Skins). So basically last year he had a part time job and was doing Dunsinane and now..well...

Just crazy how much and how fast things can change if you carry on believing and working hard(If you don't believe in yourself no one will) It's like I told everyone I'm getting into drama school on first time, most people don't believe me and want to see me fail. The reason why I told you/them is because I'm trying to show you the greatness I already see(don't mean that in a cocky way) but the things I see are like....


Those who only see with their eyes and not with their mind are easily fooled....- Remember that.

I'm done talking now, leave you with this quote By Stella Adler(don't ask me who she is do your research) "We are what we do, not what we say"

Willing....

Central School of Speech and Drama..yep, thats the place I want to go to and its come to that point in my life where I start looking for Drama Schools and Universities. Crazy how when your younger everything in life seems to go so slow and you want it to go faster, to get older, make your own choices, be your own boss and make your own decisions. Then you get older and everything seems to be happening and coming so fast and you got to not only make your own decisions but hopefully make the right ones, Its an exciting but nervous time for many people, some people will base their choices on taking risks(ME) and some wont...I guess the main difference is Fear.

So like since I was 14 I've been part of this young theatre comapny called Heat & Light at Hampstead Theatre, really reccommend it for people like 17 and under and the director Debra Glazer is someone I owe so much to she's amazing but thats another story. We would often go to Central Drama school sometimes to rehearse and I just fell in love with the place, I remember everytime I'd go there I'd have this big cheesy smile as if it was Christmas, seeing all these students walking in, out and around the building and thinking "wow they're so cool, I want to be like them, I want to come here" Got to the point where I rememebr like one day turning up to Swiss Cottage, and sitting outside Hampstead Theatre watching the Central School students walking out and talking to each other and some rehearsing, watched this for two hours, Crazy right? But I guess when you truly are inspired or feel like a feeling you don't feel often your body your mindset wants to feel that feeling again and that's what Central made me feel like I had that feeling with BRIT School too.

So I guess now its just putting in the work to make it there, be an OFFICIAL Student of Central School of Speech & Drama in September 2012 studying a BA in Acting. I will be applying for other Drama Schools such as RADA, Rose Bruford, LAMDA, RWCMD & Guildhall(Yeah yeah I know its alot and I am aware you have to pay for an audition), but I really want to and feel the need to go to Drama School & learn more skills and develop even more on the ones I have. I kind of think now the more people read my blog or the more people understand and talk to me they realise almost how deluded I am, how much of a dreamer I am. I reckon even some of my teachers think so aswell cause I got this love hate thing going on with diction so I'm always working EXTRA hard on that and some of them like 3/6 really think I can get into Drama school next year, but I reckon like the other 3 are like really? On your first try? LOL and I guess some of my friends well I don't know...they probably see me as like I said earlier just DELUDED someone that thinks too positive and like someone who isn't realistic....you know what I say? "being realistic is the most commonly traveled road to mediocrity"

With this blog done, its back to work/training....

Skill is being willing working at something until you’re either really good at it, or you die getting good at it. - Will Smith

Having a skill and not nurturing it and practising at it is almost like taking it for granted - Aubrey "Drake" Graham

P.S. Kirstin Scott Thomas went Central, do you know how AMAZING She is? one of the most underrated actresses ever, she is recognised but doesn't get enough credit, & so did Andrew Garfield he is an amazing young actor, might remember him from Social Network playing Eduardo Saverin, he has such a big future ahead of him. LOADS of amazing actors went central but I rate those two SOO highly

Some questions to me

Name: Jesse Miz Travie Gassongo-Alexander

Origin: French/Congolease

D.O.B. 30/09/1993, Born in France, Paris to be more specific north  of Paris In A place called fontainebleau.

First acting experience, playing a Mexican musketeer in year 4(10 years old) I was a chubby kid and I had to wear those tight trousers that horse riders have and the size they got me was too small but I didn't want to let them down so I had to wear them and I remember  everyone just laughing at me and having a facial expression as if they were thinking "you are on fat ass kid" lool

I knew I wanted to be an actor after I failed in football lol kept getting trials for pro clubs and not getting signed but I was doing shows without even realizing how much I enjoyed them, my new years resolution for 2009 was to Focus on acting give it a shot, see what happens....


I see myself as someone like really social, I like meeting new people. If you've been with me in education then I get refered as the class clown, but at the same time I'm like so determined and ambitious to the extent where people almost see me as deluded, but I don't think anyone that was great  or is great was not seen as deluded before. I'm really outspoken and like almost cheesy sometimes with my quotes on dreams etc, but I feel like sometimes I'm talking for the people who are to shy to say what they're thinking...am I making any sense?

An Emotional trait that i would like to change is this kind of barrier I have to girls, like I'm kind of messed if I was to be honest where I only sleep with girls or have them as friends almost too scared for a relationship so I have this barrier which I don't bring down cause I don't want to get hurt, funny thing Is I brought it down for someone and got Hurt Real bad recently, lool to most people it wouldn't have been that bad but like growing up for like half of my life with just my mum and sister and like all of my aunties I  think I took like an emotional soft kind of side from them, so I fall real hard for girls, so I kind of wish that side of me could like drop and go or that I know how to control my emotions a bit better.

Traits I think people like in me are like that Im sociable, open minded and possibly a warm person?
Traits I think people may not like about me is that I may be too much, that my determination may come across as arrogance?


Traits I like in people? I find a Trait that I like in everyone...

My BIGGEST FEAR is to leave this place called BRIT School & just  become a bum like I'm working and dreaming about this dream too hard for it all to crash. This dream is for me and Im doing it for me cause its what I wanna do, but like with all the support I get from some old friends and teachers and my mum and family, It gets to the point where I wanna do it for them too so like yeah like my biggest fear is just not being able to do what ive always dreamed of doing, to fail in life to die before I achieve the greatness that I dream of achieving..

These were like some questions I was asked by my director alongside with some of my fellow cast members, and it just felt good to get it out. Like when people talk to me I want them to feel comfortable and as if they know me well, so yeah that was like the EXPOSURE blog...done

You Bore Me...I'm Yawning You Just Can't See Me

1st of June 2011, not saying how I'm famous or some shit, but what do I call them?Haters? Weird how you trying to do positive brings out the negative in someone. Weird how I don't think I had anything to write this week until I got this shit prank-call from.... what you  call them... haters? losers? "we check your twitter, know what you are? Your a loser, your not going to be a actor, you haven't got supporters, you sound like a FAKE, you've changed! What's up with your hair? Where are you now in America? Joke your at home" These are just a few of the comments that came out from them, to me it's like whatever, but it's the fact it's from people who probably know me, and aint happy that I'm chasing something I've dreamed about...weird right? So your idea of having a good night out is attempting to prank call someone and say things like that...sounds like a good night out right?

Whatever really mum always told me someone or people saying negative means your doing something right so keep doing what your doing.  Another weird thing is I think it'd be really shit if I took it to heart and went in my room somewhere and started crying and slitting my writs but It just motivates me you know what I mean?  Like I been going Cinema quite alot recently and its Inspiring you know dreaming that one day that could be your film up there, that could be kids choosing to go on orange wednesday to see a film your in, or a couple going out to watch a movie cause your in it...that could be your film thats up there that could eventually inspire someone else to want act, it could be your performance that changes someones life or view on a subject they had prior to the film...Its beautiful & Crazy how just maybe me doing something I love can bring out the some positive...the negativity will always be there its just how much you let it affect the positive that counts

"If you don't like me remember its mind over matter; I don't mind and you don't matter." 

"opinions aint facts take them and let em go"