http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L1f6UWkDVGc
^^^
MANDEM ON THE WALL (@MandemOnTheWall)
The new HIT youtube comdey series!!
A trio of friends meet at the place they love to jam - The Wall. Together they discuss their daily antics as youth in todays society.
Starring two of my closest friends @PercelleAscott & @JoivanWade with the hilarious comic @RealDeeKartier filmed by IR Media!
I am not a film critic but I can assure you this is AMAZINGLY FUNNY! And I know all the team would really appreciate your support! A Bunch of young people, filming, acting and writing their OWN stuff! Making/Creating their OWN opportunties, so please do check it out and support! I'll be letting out a new blog post soon but in the meantime, watch this show which I think will be HUGE! 7,000 views in 3days that tells you something!
Take Care XO
Wednesday, 28 December 2011
Tuesday, 6 December 2011
Just A....
THANK YOU
I don't even realise it but I am mostly blogging...AND tweeting about my insecurities or just negative things, i.e. someone not believing in me or bitching about me and how it gets to me blah blah blah that I forget to mention and thank all the positive feedback/support I get from people weather it be off Teachers(Secondary School, BRIT School) Twitter, facebook, blogger and celebrity's too...Tom Hardy, Gary Oldman, Nonso Anozie, Anna Chancellor(buddy lol), Fiona Phillips, Charlotte De Carle, Chipmunk....you guys and these celebs support in what I will hopefully have a successful career in is like fuel... to me the vehicle and I really do appreciate it.
Thank you
Take Care x
I don't even realise it but I am mostly blogging...AND tweeting about my insecurities or just negative things, i.e. someone not believing in me or bitching about me and how it gets to me blah blah blah that I forget to mention and thank all the positive feedback/support I get from people weather it be off Teachers(Secondary School, BRIT School) Twitter, facebook, blogger and celebrity's too...Tom Hardy, Gary Oldman, Nonso Anozie, Anna Chancellor(buddy lol), Fiona Phillips, Charlotte De Carle, Chipmunk....you guys and these celebs support in what I will hopefully have a successful career in is like fuel... to me the vehicle and I really do appreciate it.
Thank you
Take Care x
Saturday, 3 December 2011
the weird feeling in your stomach
So it's the 10th of November 2011, tomorrow is 11/11/11 <<LOL thought I'd add that in(wasn't even funny). Feels like I haven't done this in a while(write a blog) I definitely haven't written on my iPhone notes for a while. I have this crazy weird thing in stomach, feels like a fireball just spinning, weird I know, but it's a good feeling. That inspiration spark, not that I had lost it, but it wasn't as HOT as it is now. To be honest I had the spark, but it was most likely for the wrong reasons...to prove something to people that I don't need to prove , to prove myself that I can do amazingly well with this character & play. However I don't need to do this & to be honest I've already done this, i'll always question it myself "actors always want to be loved" people will question that statement, but if your an actor think carefully about it. I guess it's that self doubt that I will forever have especially going into to an industry like acting. That self doubt that I attempt to play off/ lie/ portray as confidence, to friends, girls..basically I'm an emotional wreck lol..maybe that's why I find such comfort in acting, not being myself. Find comfort in Blogging cause it's my way of popping the bottle cause I bottle my emotions..
This blog, this spark of inspiration, this fireball spinning in my stomach has come from me just leaving from my visit to the Mildmay Hospital for HIV. I don't have AIDS Or HIV but the next character I play named Prior Walter does. I done a lot of research online and learnt a lot but there is nothing like actually meeting people at this Hospital dedicated to AIDS. Meeting people who have the virus and meeting doctors/nurses/
Wednesday, 19 October 2011
Finding the light again
I really do see my life as a CRAZY PLAY...
Since we got back to BRIT I haven't found the same Love that I had for it, just hasn't been there. The Spark felt like it'd gone. Felt like I had changed A LOT to attempt please more people and attempt to not offend so many people(well a few) and by doing that I found unhappiness in myself and STILL not pleasing people... made me want to just leave BRIT, finish the final major shows in January & just go cause there's no point in really staying at a place where you feel unhappy in the certain area/group thats supposed to be your comfort zone.
^^ I was just thinking about that all last night, then I had a random idea to go tomorrow(this morning) and attempt to get 1 of the 20 £10 tickets released at 10am for the AMAZING play Jerusalem By Jez Butterworth starring Mark Rylance.
So yeah I get there for 6.50am and there is a couple there who have camped over the night(well got there at 4am) so its literally just us 3 outside the Apollo Theatre in our sleeping bag, I later on meet a lady who just performed at the Globe Theatre in the production Faustus, but anyway...
This is a really bad blog by the way
BUT I saw Jerusalem and was literally flabbergasted by the play and the performances especially in Mark Rylance! it was ..... I don't know how to describe it and my determination to get tickets and camp out from 6.50am paid dividends as I got FRONT ROW MIDDLE SEAT TICKETS! So to see the performance and be right at the front was AMAZING! BUT yeah I just literally can't get over the performance of Mark Rylance its sooo INSPIRING!!! Like THE BEST PERFORMANCE I HAVE EVER SEEN! Never EVER seen someone so in character!
Such an INSPIRING performance it literally like SPARKED and RECHARGED my batteries! I was literally HOPPING around the bus stop like a kangaroo cause the feeling is bouncing up inside me! And I can gladly say I'm back! Regardless of if I'm pleasing people or not or if they are talking behind my back..
I'M BACK! I really dont care! I'm not going to let anyone have the ability to bring me down and prevent me from reaching the final goal...
Since we got back to BRIT I haven't found the same Love that I had for it, just hasn't been there. The Spark felt like it'd gone. Felt like I had changed A LOT to attempt please more people and attempt to not offend so many people(well a few) and by doing that I found unhappiness in myself and STILL not pleasing people... made me want to just leave BRIT, finish the final major shows in January & just go cause there's no point in really staying at a place where you feel unhappy in the certain area/group thats supposed to be your comfort zone.
^^ I was just thinking about that all last night, then I had a random idea to go tomorrow(this morning) and attempt to get 1 of the 20 £10 tickets released at 10am for the AMAZING play Jerusalem By Jez Butterworth starring Mark Rylance.
So yeah I get there for 6.50am and there is a couple there who have camped over the night(well got there at 4am) so its literally just us 3 outside the Apollo Theatre in our sleeping bag, I later on meet a lady who just performed at the Globe Theatre in the production Faustus, but anyway...
This is a really bad blog by the way
BUT I saw Jerusalem and was literally flabbergasted by the play and the performances especially in Mark Rylance! it was ..... I don't know how to describe it and my determination to get tickets and camp out from 6.50am paid dividends as I got FRONT ROW MIDDLE SEAT TICKETS! So to see the performance and be right at the front was AMAZING! BUT yeah I just literally can't get over the performance of Mark Rylance its sooo INSPIRING!!! Like THE BEST PERFORMANCE I HAVE EVER SEEN! Never EVER seen someone so in character!
Such an INSPIRING performance it literally like SPARKED and RECHARGED my batteries! I was literally HOPPING around the bus stop like a kangaroo cause the feeling is bouncing up inside me! And I can gladly say I'm back! Regardless of if I'm pleasing people or not or if they are talking behind my back..
I'M BACK! I really dont care! I'm not going to let anyone have the ability to bring me down and prevent me from reaching the final goal...
Sunday, 2 October 2011
Regrets & being Speechless:The BigDream Continues
First of all I'd like to remind/tell you its A COLE WORLD!! J Cole's DEBUT Album is the biggest selling Rapper album since Nicki Minaj and is on course to sell between 225,000-250,000 from Tuesday-Saturday. Waiting for the confirmation Today, and is also on course to be #1 On The Billboard Album Chart!!<<<You've helped me out Loads, crazy what music can do!
Why isit? Everytime I write a blog I am at Andrew's house and him and Corey are both completely KONKED out!<<< I'm moving in with these losers too, so its a sight I shall be getting used to.
It was my birthday two days ago!! Turned 18! Mad cause some people think I'm 19 lol.....some of you girls were older, so it was a necessity otherwise I'd get the "Your Cute" Line...
So as I begin this blog I see a tweet from ChrissyBoo91 "Making decisions when your mad is never a good idea" funny cause with my last blog post I did the complete opposite of that and made a decision when I was mad. I've apologized to the people(3) involved...for making it so public...end of that play.
So....I got the part I wanted. Prior Walters From Angels In America Part 1 Directed by the Amazing Imogen Brodie.
I was pretty speechless throughout the whole day. For the first time in a long time I was speechless. From Wednesday to Friday I wasn't myself..people saw me being so quiet, leaving school so early, not answering my phone not even writing inspirational messages on twitter, instead I wrote "I'm a strong follower of the word believe, but for the first time in my life, I'm struggling to believe". Maybe it was because it was the first time I had actually done what I was saying I'd do "Work even when your sleeping" etc. Maybe it was because it was the first time I had worked sooo hard on something and was not relying on the false belief "Hope" "Luck" that I would get the part, that what people had being saying to me through these years "its not just about working hard/how hard you work" was TRUE, fortunately that wasn't the case, but it was a really nervy movement and made me realize how HARD I will have to work to get into Drama School on my first attempt...BIG ASK, I know but we will have to wait and see...The #BigDream Continues....
P.S.
To the two girls I wrote a private message on Facebook...don't forget what I said...and don't let anyone tell you it isn't true..cause it is
Why isit? Everytime I write a blog I am at Andrew's house and him and Corey are both completely KONKED out!<<< I'm moving in with these losers too, so its a sight I shall be getting used to.
It was my birthday two days ago!! Turned 18! Mad cause some people think I'm 19 lol.....some of you girls were older, so it was a necessity otherwise I'd get the "Your Cute" Line...
So as I begin this blog I see a tweet from ChrissyBoo91 "Making decisions when your mad is never a good idea" funny cause with my last blog post I did the complete opposite of that and made a decision when I was mad. I've apologized to the people(3) involved...for making it so public...end of that play.
So....I got the part I wanted. Prior Walters From Angels In America Part 1 Directed by the Amazing Imogen Brodie.
I was pretty speechless throughout the whole day. For the first time in a long time I was speechless. From Wednesday to Friday I wasn't myself..people saw me being so quiet, leaving school so early, not answering my phone not even writing inspirational messages on twitter, instead I wrote "I'm a strong follower of the word believe, but for the first time in my life, I'm struggling to believe". Maybe it was because it was the first time I had actually done what I was saying I'd do "Work even when your sleeping" etc. Maybe it was because it was the first time I had worked sooo hard on something and was not relying on the false belief "Hope" "Luck" that I would get the part, that what people had being saying to me through these years "its not just about working hard/how hard you work" was TRUE, fortunately that wasn't the case, but it was a really nervy movement and made me realize how HARD I will have to work to get into Drama School on my first attempt...BIG ASK, I know but we will have to wait and see...The #BigDream Continues....
P.S.
To the two girls I wrote a private message on Facebook...don't forget what I said...and don't let anyone tell you it isn't true..cause it is
Sunday, 18 September 2011
The Realization.....
Todays the 18th September 2011 and I'm currently sitting up on a mattress at Andrews(Laurence Olivier Jr) house whilst Haydn, Andrew and Corey are all asleep..*Andrew your snoring*...
We've been having this, well what I like to call Monologue Bootcamp where since yesterday we have limited our activities that do not involve anything to do with acting in particular monologues...sweat blood and monologues
This weeks been pretty weird, I've realized I don't really have as strong as a relationship with my year at BRIT School as a whole/groups as I thought I did. I have really good relationships with a lot of people individually or in small groups but I feel a lot of people when around a bigger group might slightly change, and say things that may be out of character or be swayed into saying things that I don't believe they mean,(Imagine if they done something productive instead) just a thought just an opinion *3.2.1. START BITCHING* <<Trust me it will happen, and if you think for a slight moment it's your group or it's you then it most likely is you....
yup I've also realized well I realized this a long time ago but my blog, Facebook and TWITTER is a source for a few people to twist things or maybe see things how they want to see things and not actually reading whats there, like Will Smith would say "they're looking for something more complex..which is not there" <<and by doing that guess what they do..*BING* start bitching or saying things things that just arent true which is basically bitching...
For example two days ago I was pretty annoyed and upset my friend(<<could of made that bold, but didn't) was using the same monologue as me, and I vented my frustration on twitter WITHOUT mentioning his name or "being mean" or having a bitchfest but yeah basically I was upset cause I worked so hard on finding this monologue/play and he has just randomly asked for it and said he would find a new ANOTHER one in the same play, but didn't and is using mine blah blah blah and cause were going for the same character with the same monologue its like...*People will disagree but its TRUE* As actors we have ego's and and are selfish because we have a belief that what we can bring a uniqueness and freshness to a performance if given what we wanted in this case a character/part also because we wanted to be constantly challenged..<<Even teachers have said this *<<why did i feel the need to back up what I say with teachers :s * So basically I was talking to My friend Corey (@CoreyTDD <<Writer for BBC and Channel 4 follow him) and he was comforting me and telling me not to worry and people began to get involved like we were having a bitchfest when we were clearly NOT like I said earlier, "not actually reading whats there" and blowing things out of proportion. Another person tweeted "allow all this indirect shit" which is the MOST HYPOCRITICAL THING I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE..If you asked me for an example for what Indirect means that would be the perfect definition for it. But that's an example of how twitter the place created for people to speak there mind, vent their opinion within 140 characters is now a source for people to twist things or blow things out of proportion, when I was just having a harmless conversation with nothing had not been said to the person in subject. I Still see this person as a friend and wish him the best....
The last Realization is probably how much I want to be in Angel In America Part One....as Prior
Remaining to what I said with Shiarone Daley(who has left Brit Now) I will leave BRIT with few friends in my strand or in my year,Wish it wasn't the case, but I'm sure it is, cause I say a lot of things that people don't want to hear...maybe I speak too quickly and will just say what's on mind....I made a cheeseball status the other week ago(most of my statuses are cheesy) "Feel Like Kanye West, Liked By A Few Hated By Many....Hopefully loved by elite" *Yes I Did just get GASSED at my own quote*
We've been having this, well what I like to call Monologue Bootcamp where since yesterday we have limited our activities that do not involve anything to do with acting in particular monologues...sweat blood and monologues
This weeks been pretty weird, I've realized I don't really have as strong as a relationship with my year at BRIT School as a whole/groups as I thought I did. I have really good relationships with a lot of people individually or in small groups but I feel a lot of people when around a bigger group might slightly change, and say things that may be out of character or be swayed into saying things that I don't believe they mean,(Imagine if they done something productive instead) just a thought just an opinion *3.2.1. START BITCHING* <<Trust me it will happen, and if you think for a slight moment it's your group or it's you then it most likely is you....
yup I've also realized well I realized this a long time ago but my blog, Facebook and TWITTER is a source for a few people to twist things or maybe see things how they want to see things and not actually reading whats there, like Will Smith would say "they're looking for something more complex..which is not there" <<and by doing that guess what they do..*BING* start bitching or saying things things that just arent true which is basically bitching...
For example two days ago I was pretty annoyed and upset my friend(<<could of made that bold, but didn't) was using the same monologue as me, and I vented my frustration on twitter WITHOUT mentioning his name or "being mean" or having a bitchfest but yeah basically I was upset cause I worked so hard on finding this monologue/play and he has just randomly asked for it and said he would find a new ANOTHER one in the same play, but didn't and is using mine blah blah blah and cause were going for the same character with the same monologue its like...*People will disagree but its TRUE* As actors we have ego's and and are selfish because we have a belief that what we can bring a uniqueness and freshness to a performance if given what we wanted in this case a character/part also because we wanted to be constantly challenged..<<Even teachers have said this *<<why did i feel the need to back up what I say with teachers :s * So basically I was talking to My friend Corey (@CoreyTDD <<Writer for BBC and Channel 4 follow him) and he was comforting me and telling me not to worry and people began to get involved like we were having a bitchfest when we were clearly NOT like I said earlier, "not actually reading whats there" and blowing things out of proportion. Another person tweeted "allow all this indirect shit" which is the MOST HYPOCRITICAL THING I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE..If you asked me for an example for what Indirect means that would be the perfect definition for it. But that's an example of how twitter the place created for people to speak there mind, vent their opinion within 140 characters is now a source for people to twist things or blow things out of proportion, when I was just having a harmless conversation with nothing had not been said to the person in subject. I Still see this person as a friend and wish him the best....
The last Realization is probably how much I want to be in Angel In America Part One....as Prior
Remaining to what I said with Shiarone Daley(who has left Brit Now) I will leave BRIT with few friends in my strand or in my year,Wish it wasn't the case, but I'm sure it is, cause I say a lot of things that people don't want to hear...maybe I speak too quickly and will just say what's on mind....I made a cheeseball status the other week ago(most of my statuses are cheesy) "Feel Like Kanye West, Liked By A Few Hated By Many....Hopefully loved by elite" *Yes I Did just get GASSED at my own quote*
Sunday, 11 September 2011
We The Next....
Back to the blogging every two weeks, cause I'm back at BRIT, thats a promise.
Erm So I've had one of those weeks where I've just been reflecting and feeling inspired. Started with going to the cinema, to see the Rise Of The Planet of the Apes..Watched it? I recommend it really good film, bit moving off that. Just the thought of knowing thats what I want to do is really inspiring from seeing the adverts to the actual film. I want people to come to shows/cinemas to come see my work or work that I'm involved in. Really is inspiring gets me emotional and shit lol.
The next time was watching Inside the Actors studio, if your not watching it watch it! It's my favourite TV programme and gets to me everytime so more inspiring moments. Actors like Josh Brolin, Kate Winslet, Will Smith, Don Cheadle, Colin Firth, Sean Penn, Robert De Niro, Ralph Fiense feeding me with so much knowledge is really a blessing and hopefully I can be in that position in years to come.
I always say on my twitter...WE THE NEXT ONES! The New Generation the new kids on the block, were the future Presidents, Prime Ministers, Cleaners, Music Producers, Singers, Actors, Priests..whatever it is and the opportunities are out there, we just gotta take it, make it ours.
Basically this blog is just me saying again how much I want to do this and how much I will go for it. One of the most inspiring things I heard was from the TV Show and it was from Don Cheadle he said "Would I reccommend acting no, don't do it CHANGE Carreers...okay? Now if you considered that then this career isn't for you"
^^ and I reckon that goes for everything in life no matter what career your deciding to take, do something you love cause that no isn't gonna effect you or make you question....
Erm So I've had one of those weeks where I've just been reflecting and feeling inspired. Started with going to the cinema, to see the Rise Of The Planet of the Apes..Watched it? I recommend it really good film, bit moving off that. Just the thought of knowing thats what I want to do is really inspiring from seeing the adverts to the actual film. I want people to come to shows/cinemas to come see my work or work that I'm involved in. Really is inspiring gets me emotional and shit lol.
The next time was watching Inside the Actors studio, if your not watching it watch it! It's my favourite TV programme and gets to me everytime so more inspiring moments. Actors like Josh Brolin, Kate Winslet, Will Smith, Don Cheadle, Colin Firth, Sean Penn, Robert De Niro, Ralph Fiense feeding me with so much knowledge is really a blessing and hopefully I can be in that position in years to come.
I always say on my twitter...WE THE NEXT ONES! The New Generation the new kids on the block, were the future Presidents, Prime Ministers, Cleaners, Music Producers, Singers, Actors, Priests..whatever it is and the opportunities are out there, we just gotta take it, make it ours.
Basically this blog is just me saying again how much I want to do this and how much I will go for it. One of the most inspiring things I heard was from the TV Show and it was from Don Cheadle he said "Would I reccommend acting no, don't do it CHANGE Carreers...okay? Now if you considered that then this career isn't for you"
^^ and I reckon that goes for everything in life no matter what career your deciding to take, do something you love cause that no isn't gonna effect you or make you question....
9/11 Respect
Just want say R.I.P. to all those people who lost their lives and the families and friends affected by what happened in New York city 10 years ago, and to the brave civilians and national services who helped people You are all Heroes.
Terrorist thought going through with these bombs and acts of evil would break us, they were extremely wrong..It only made us Stronger.
Terrorist thought going through with these bombs and acts of evil would break us, they were extremely wrong..It only made us Stronger.
Saturday, 20 August 2011
When we was younger it was too slow now we older its too fast, I'm Talking About Life
It's been so long since I wrote my last post, two months.
Nothing much happened at that time apart from me realizing that we have less than a year left of the BRIT School experience, Year 12 has been an amazing experience and I've learnt so many amazing things and have met so many amazing people friends, teachers and people inside the arts industry. I really am grateful for the experience. It's opened my eyes to so many things about myself and how much I love the art, *Que for a cheesy line* "When I met acting I got down on one knee and I proposed"
So at the end of the Brit term we found out what plays we will be performing in January; Angels In America Part 1, Coram Boy, Pornography, Vernom God Little.
This is also the first year that the Theatre Department is putting on 4 productions On for the Common Ground Season(Final Major Project) normally they have two or three, so that shows the high quality of talent in our year and another reason why you should really listen when I say watch out for certain people or to remember certain peoples names. If your wondering which one I want to be in, I want to be in Angels In America(why) just cause I feel its a really juicy play, challenging and something I can really get my teeth in, we audition when we come back so right now it's all about finding a monologue similar to the play or the character you want to be.
Also the next year in general is so big for me. I'm auditioning for a play I really want to be a part of and play a character that will most likely be the most challenging to date. I'll also be auditioning for Drama Schools which if you've been reading my past blog posts, It's such an important thing to me and something I plan on going into this year. I'll also be moving out my house which is such an exciting and important thing to me, standing on my own two feet and me being independent is something I really take pride in, know what I mean? Last but not least, leaving The BRIT School. This place has been such an incredible part of my life, I've only been there for two years so you could imagine how it would be for the people who've been there for 4years...its just a crazy rollercoaster and I'm not looking forward to the moment it ends.
But thats all me for today, keep following me on Twitter, reading the blogs and supporting, I really appreciate it, someone showing faith in someone elses dream...Thats Love
Nothing much happened at that time apart from me realizing that we have less than a year left of the BRIT School experience, Year 12 has been an amazing experience and I've learnt so many amazing things and have met so many amazing people friends, teachers and people inside the arts industry. I really am grateful for the experience. It's opened my eyes to so many things about myself and how much I love the art, *Que for a cheesy line* "When I met acting I got down on one knee and I proposed"
So at the end of the Brit term we found out what plays we will be performing in January; Angels In America Part 1, Coram Boy, Pornography, Vernom God Little.
This is also the first year that the Theatre Department is putting on 4 productions On for the Common Ground Season(Final Major Project) normally they have two or three, so that shows the high quality of talent in our year and another reason why you should really listen when I say watch out for certain people or to remember certain peoples names. If your wondering which one I want to be in, I want to be in Angels In America(why) just cause I feel its a really juicy play, challenging and something I can really get my teeth in, we audition when we come back so right now it's all about finding a monologue similar to the play or the character you want to be.
Also the next year in general is so big for me. I'm auditioning for a play I really want to be a part of and play a character that will most likely be the most challenging to date. I'll also be auditioning for Drama Schools which if you've been reading my past blog posts, It's such an important thing to me and something I plan on going into this year. I'll also be moving out my house which is such an exciting and important thing to me, standing on my own two feet and me being independent is something I really take pride in, know what I mean? Last but not least, leaving The BRIT School. This place has been such an incredible part of my life, I've only been there for two years so you could imagine how it would be for the people who've been there for 4years...its just a crazy rollercoaster and I'm not looking forward to the moment it ends.
But thats all me for today, keep following me on Twitter, reading the blogs and supporting, I really appreciate it, someone showing faith in someone elses dream...Thats Love
Sunday, 24 July 2011
She walks away..The Sun Goes Down
Sunday 24th July.
Amy Winehouse died yesterday...23rd of July 2011, never forget where I was. It was the BRIT School's 20th Anniversary Celebration and we were raving in the Obie Theatre having a BANGING time and Ace & Vis Radio 1Xtra Dj's and ex school students were djing when the news came in that she had died. I remember how the mood of the whole school and the event slowly changed the realisation that this Young Girl who had an AMAZING SOULFUL RAW VOICE and that was emotionally lost had died at the young age of 27. Her being an EX Brit School student and it being the 20th Anniversary of the schools existence also made the atmosphere abit weird, made some people feel like they were connected to her abit more. I loved her voice and her...I remember meeting, well seeing her outside across this bar/club opposite the GAP in Camden by the Odeon, and me talking loud saying "Is that Amy Winehouse" and her shouting back at me "Hello Love you alright?" SHIT I had the fattest smile ever, mouth was proper sore after from smiling all the way back home on the Tube from Camden to Morden, the LAST stop on Northern Line. Many people will say yeah we saw this coming but I was maybe one of those "Deluded" fans who said She'll recover and she'll make another banging album. I even have her on my Inspiration/Idols photo album on facebook from October 2009, the caption being "Singer, Crack Head, Mad, But Still a Role Model 4 Me & Inspiration Cause she's someone with full of LOVE and she's one of the best at what she does in my eyes..Amy Winehouse"
I was supposed to write this blog about BRIT 20, but I could go on for days about how amazing she was. Crazy how someones music and life can touch you so much right? ...... Someone told me their tears wont dry on their own for now...I feel their pain.
The even at BRIT was amazing, the school celebrating 20 Years of existence and their success. Seeing so many old faces coming through and so much talent in the building. Just a nice vibe. Feel "Blessed" to be apart of it and the school, and hopefully leave there next year and be able to make the school proud by doing what I LOVE doing which is ACTING. I was listening to Ace and Vis today on their radio coverage from the Celebrations at BRIT and one of the teachers who has been with the school since it opened in 1991 was being interviewed said "you get some special students who are very focused and know what they want and are willing to DIE for it, this can kind of look selfish to other students but its just them wanting to Succeed" & I felt that was almost like who I am and sometimes how I can be seen which can annoy people, its ashame cause I never want to seem selfish or someone that has an EGO but I am seen that way, but I hope people see the MASSIVE amount of LOVE I have and want to share with people.
Ace and Vis said something yesterday that just made me smile, "they can't stop us from DREAMING and getting our DREAMS we go to the BRIT SCHOOL"
Anyways Im off this, back to chasing the dream
Amy Winehouse died yesterday...23rd of July 2011, never forget where I was. It was the BRIT School's 20th Anniversary Celebration and we were raving in the Obie Theatre having a BANGING time and Ace & Vis Radio 1Xtra Dj's and ex school students were djing when the news came in that she had died. I remember how the mood of the whole school and the event slowly changed the realisation that this Young Girl who had an AMAZING SOULFUL RAW VOICE and that was emotionally lost had died at the young age of 27. Her being an EX Brit School student and it being the 20th Anniversary of the schools existence also made the atmosphere abit weird, made some people feel like they were connected to her abit more. I loved her voice and her...I remember meeting, well seeing her outside across this bar/club opposite the GAP in Camden by the Odeon, and me talking loud saying "Is that Amy Winehouse" and her shouting back at me "Hello Love you alright?" SHIT I had the fattest smile ever, mouth was proper sore after from smiling all the way back home on the Tube from Camden to Morden, the LAST stop on Northern Line. Many people will say yeah we saw this coming but I was maybe one of those "Deluded" fans who said She'll recover and she'll make another banging album. I even have her on my Inspiration/Idols photo album on facebook from October 2009, the caption being "Singer, Crack Head, Mad, But Still a Role Model 4 Me & Inspiration Cause she's someone with full of LOVE and she's one of the best at what she does in my eyes..Amy Winehouse"
I was supposed to write this blog about BRIT 20, but I could go on for days about how amazing she was. Crazy how someones music and life can touch you so much right? ...... Someone told me their tears wont dry on their own for now...I feel their pain.
The even at BRIT was amazing, the school celebrating 20 Years of existence and their success. Seeing so many old faces coming through and so much talent in the building. Just a nice vibe. Feel "Blessed" to be apart of it and the school, and hopefully leave there next year and be able to make the school proud by doing what I LOVE doing which is ACTING. I was listening to Ace and Vis today on their radio coverage from the Celebrations at BRIT and one of the teachers who has been with the school since it opened in 1991 was being interviewed said "you get some special students who are very focused and know what they want and are willing to DIE for it, this can kind of look selfish to other students but its just them wanting to Succeed" & I felt that was almost like who I am and sometimes how I can be seen which can annoy people, its ashame cause I never want to seem selfish or someone that has an EGO but I am seen that way, but I hope people see the MASSIVE amount of LOVE I have and want to share with people.
Ace and Vis said something yesterday that just made me smile, "they can't stop us from DREAMING and getting our DREAMS we go to the BRIT SCHOOL"
Anyways Im off this, back to chasing the dream
Magical 3days
14th July 2011 feels great, I feel blessed lol, because over the last 3days Ive seen worked produced by friends, when I say produced I mean some of us were actors, some of us were directors and some of us were writers watching our work being performed. Basically it's collaboration between the Warehouse and the Brit school. See's young playwrights producing new theatre for their generation. The writing is produced during script writing classes over the years and all the plays are directed by current(US) students. The work ranges from comedy to the surreal and from modern fairy tales to thrillers.
So the last three days has just been amazing like I said earlier I feel blessed and I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be lying if I said everyone else did too *thinks about it* okay they feel something I just don't think they'd use the word Blessed. Cause I reckon everyone really understood how talented everyone else was, the vibe outside, in the theatre, facebook, twitter or even via texts felt really good, appreciative. It was also an experience that I reckon opened people's eyes in other things or made them realise I don't want to act, direct or write or I JUST want to do this.... or for some others thinking I don't want to do any of this but were still appreciative to what they were seeing.
Me personally I felt blessed(lool I really love this word) to be apart of this whole season and then be able to work with such an impressive play, with a tight bond cast and director. Our performances went okay, we stressed about it too much instead of just enjoying the moment.
But I didn't want this post to be too much about me, well the blog is about me, but I've just enjoyed these last 3days in Particular cause I saw everyone happy, proud for once another, creatively inspired showing Love for once like EVERYONE showing love..it was one of those days if Black Eyed peas asked me "Where is The Love" I would gladly directed them to the warehouse Theatre and The BRIT School.
So the last three days has just been amazing like I said earlier I feel blessed and I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be lying if I said everyone else did too *thinks about it* okay they feel something I just don't think they'd use the word Blessed. Cause I reckon everyone really understood how talented everyone else was, the vibe outside, in the theatre, facebook, twitter or even via texts felt really good, appreciative. It was also an experience that I reckon opened people's eyes in other things or made them realise I don't want to act, direct or write or I JUST want to do this.... or for some others thinking I don't want to do any of this but were still appreciative to what they were seeing.
Me personally I felt blessed(lool I really love this word) to be apart of this whole season and then be able to work with such an impressive play, with a tight bond cast and director. Our performances went okay, we stressed about it too much instead of just enjoying the moment.
But I didn't want this post to be too much about me, well the blog is about me, but I've just enjoyed these last 3days in Particular cause I saw everyone happy, proud for once another, creatively inspired showing Love for once like EVERYONE showing love..it was one of those days if Black Eyed peas asked me "Where is The Love" I would gladly directed them to the warehouse Theatre and The BRIT School.
Saturday, 9 July 2011
"Big Dreams" Is In Full Effect
*Wiping tears from his eyes* Yes we start the blog with bad news, today we lost part of prince Jesse...due to my personal stylists assissant, cause my normal one werent in(Lied the barbers in croydon/selhurst) MESSED UP my hair, which resulting in me telling them to shave it off, and now I look like Seal's handsome lost brother. I envisioned a different hair style for my character I would be playing in the next production I'm in and showed them a picture and the guy does the opposite WTF!!! *breaths*
Okay so yeah this blog has been delayed meant to post it yesterday but I didn't and another blogger's blog(wilma) kind of inspired me to write abit more. So basically these last two months if you follow me on twitter or facebook or bbm or you just know me you would know I have been working on community theatre. A kids play about using your imagination, that was put together by Art, Techinical Theatre, Theatre & Dance. Hated it at first but ended up loving it, and I'm sure I'm not the only person that would say this. The long hours and the negative working enviourment and also the segregation between the strands didn't help, but somehow we came together. I think the turning point might of been promoting our show to the community of Croydon at their local shopping centre. The 2nd massive turning point for me and most people I reckon was the nignt before of our first show, realising that over 2 days we would be performing 5 shows to over 3,000 people.Weather it be organising a show, or dancing or acting in it, most of us were doing the thing we love, PERFORMING. It hit us That we were doing very things that we dream of doing for the rest of our lives at the tender age of 16/17 and that some people will never ever get the chance to do that, here comes the cheesy part..."That is what dreams are made of"
So now like Jay z says, "On to the next one" which is next week, the amazing play that i mentioned in one of my earlier blogs, "Pills" by Paige Fiddler being directed by the amazing Wilma who is also an amazing friend (she's probably trying to hold back a smile now) but yeah we got two shows of that, and I just want to carry that buzz, that flame that we got from ashcroft and push even further with this. I'm excited to get back on stage I don't feel at home at my own home, but I feel comfortable and homish on stage.
This blog is like all over the place and if this was an english exam I'd get a D cause it has no structure but this is how it feels when you have loads of feelings and are on a high, like Will would say "its a new thought, top of the head" cause right now its exciting times, two productions in 2 weeks. Doing what I love to do, ACTING! I had that feeling again where I really cannot and honestly mean it, I can NOT IMAGINE MYSELF DOING ANYTHING ELSE apart from ACTING. Thats when you know you in Love, where something is forever in your heart and you should never be apart...
Anyways im off this, going back to look at the mirror and cry over what the barbers has done.... *Tries to use his imagination* "MAYBE MAYBE MAYBE my HAIR GREW BACK NOW!"
Okay so yeah this blog has been delayed meant to post it yesterday but I didn't and another blogger's blog(wilma) kind of inspired me to write abit more. So basically these last two months if you follow me on twitter or facebook or bbm or you just know me you would know I have been working on community theatre. A kids play about using your imagination, that was put together by Art, Techinical Theatre, Theatre & Dance. Hated it at first but ended up loving it, and I'm sure I'm not the only person that would say this. The long hours and the negative working enviourment and also the segregation between the strands didn't help, but somehow we came together. I think the turning point might of been promoting our show to the community of Croydon at their local shopping centre. The 2nd massive turning point for me and most people I reckon was the nignt before of our first show, realising that over 2 days we would be performing 5 shows to over 3,000 people.Weather it be organising a show, or dancing or acting in it, most of us were doing the thing we love, PERFORMING. It hit us That we were doing very things that we dream of doing for the rest of our lives at the tender age of 16/17 and that some people will never ever get the chance to do that, here comes the cheesy part..."That is what dreams are made of"
So now like Jay z says, "On to the next one" which is next week, the amazing play that i mentioned in one of my earlier blogs, "Pills" by Paige Fiddler being directed by the amazing Wilma who is also an amazing friend (she's probably trying to hold back a smile now) but yeah we got two shows of that, and I just want to carry that buzz, that flame that we got from ashcroft and push even further with this. I'm excited to get back on stage I don't feel at home at my own home, but I feel comfortable and homish on stage.
This blog is like all over the place and if this was an english exam I'd get a D cause it has no structure but this is how it feels when you have loads of feelings and are on a high, like Will would say "its a new thought, top of the head" cause right now its exciting times, two productions in 2 weeks. Doing what I love to do, ACTING! I had that feeling again where I really cannot and honestly mean it, I can NOT IMAGINE MYSELF DOING ANYTHING ELSE apart from ACTING. Thats when you know you in Love, where something is forever in your heart and you should never be apart...
Anyways im off this, going back to look at the mirror and cry over what the barbers has done.... *Tries to use his imagination* "MAYBE MAYBE MAYBE my HAIR GREW BACK NOW!"
Thursday, 30 June 2011
Wanted someone to talk to
I Know I wrote one yesterday but I just felt like writing.
Yes I did go back to my bookshop again...>>>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q7V2U_Jyl_o Lol everytime I go there this song comes up in my head. The people there see me so often they began to speak today to me in more depth asking me how I come so often was I getting ready or looking for a showcase piece? I just explained to them That I was just passionate about acting and was beginning to look for drama school monologues cause I'm getting in on first time. She smiled and recommended a play to me that is quite new So that's another book to the collection(20 books in a week and half) Crazy money(It's money from an advert I done a while back) but I feel like this is all money I will make back.
I wrote this blog, cause I was bored, wanted to write my feelings down on the tube when only one earplug of my earphones would work, or my ipod was DEAD battery and now...well I write these posts weekly cause I enjoy doing it, people like reading it, which is a bonus, but also that a lot of people relate to me but are sometimes scarred to admit it and put it out there.
Someone attempted to call me cocky today and my reaction was "WHAT" lol but I can see sometimes how that can be seen or how my persona can come across. Hopefully you can see by reading these blogs I'm not. There's a thin line between self confidence which I think I have and cockyness which I am not. I guess I'm just outspoken about things I see and want to do with my life. I'm Willing to say and predict things, willing to believe in what other people see as a risk and what I see as a pretty normal route. There's this amazing monologue/poem at the end of Coach Carter(Amazing film recommend it) and I thought I understood it before, but only now do I really understand it..give it a read(below. Yep this was just another one of those random posts and I need to go over my script for a play I'm doing and also need to read this book by Stella Adler. So talk soon World...
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadiquit,
our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
Your playing small does not serve the world, there is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people wont feel insecure around you. We were all ment to shine as children do, its not just in some of us it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we uncontiously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated by our own fears, our presence atomatically liberates others."
Yes I did go back to my bookshop again...>>>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q7V2U_Jyl_o Lol everytime I go there this song comes up in my head. The people there see me so often they began to speak today to me in more depth asking me how I come so often was I getting ready or looking for a showcase piece? I just explained to them That I was just passionate about acting and was beginning to look for drama school monologues cause I'm getting in on first time. She smiled and recommended a play to me that is quite new So that's another book to the collection(20 books in a week and half) Crazy money(It's money from an advert I done a while back) but I feel like this is all money I will make back.
I wrote this blog, cause I was bored, wanted to write my feelings down on the tube when only one earplug of my earphones would work, or my ipod was DEAD battery and now...well I write these posts weekly cause I enjoy doing it, people like reading it, which is a bonus, but also that a lot of people relate to me but are sometimes scarred to admit it and put it out there.
Someone attempted to call me cocky today and my reaction was "WHAT" lol but I can see sometimes how that can be seen or how my persona can come across. Hopefully you can see by reading these blogs I'm not. There's a thin line between self confidence which I think I have and cockyness which I am not. I guess I'm just outspoken about things I see and want to do with my life. I'm Willing to say and predict things, willing to believe in what other people see as a risk and what I see as a pretty normal route. There's this amazing monologue/poem at the end of Coach Carter(Amazing film recommend it) and I thought I understood it before, but only now do I really understand it..give it a read(below. Yep this was just another one of those random posts and I need to go over my script for a play I'm doing and also need to read this book by Stella Adler. So talk soon World...
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadiquit,
our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
Your playing small does not serve the world, there is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people wont feel insecure around you. We were all ment to shine as children do, its not just in some of us it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we uncontiously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated by our own fears, our presence atomatically liberates others."
Wednesday, 29 June 2011
This Is Not The Title...actuallly it is
To The Lady At The Samuel French Theatre Bookshop With Short Black Hair & Glasses your AMAZING!
So I've been meaning to write a blog, but have been keeping myself Busy, thats good right?(Hears a voice yes it is)
So basically on the 25th & 26th of July the BRIT School For Performing Arts Toured our productions of Henry VI Trilogy in Stratford Upon Avon(Shakespeare's Home) at the Dell Outdoor Theatre. It was a really amazing theatre, 1) cause were performing and we(actors) get a buzz off performing and 2)were touring our show and 3) cause its for the RSC(Royal Shakespeare Company) those are like 3 amazing things all in one opportunity.
Performing outside was an interesting challenge cause Ive actually never done it before and there is so many things to think about when performing, with loudness being a pivotal one, but yeah basically It was just another one of those moments where you get excited for the future and the love for the art really comes out. You go back home thinking WOW completely RANDOM people watched your show, people from another part of the country enjoyed themselves watching your show and these are things that will be occurring more often in a few years time(Movies and Plays). It's like as the days go on and on the passion grows and grows, and the determination and the work rate thickens and thickens. Some People are born 100% with IT the acting(naturally talented at it) and some people aren't but have a love for it and work for it and work hard, till it eventually becomes a Skill, and that overcomes talent, but no matter how the art has come to you, both ways you still need to work for it to become a skill.
We also went to see Dunsinane by David Greig(Amazing writrer, really passionate too about Scotland check his other plays) at the Swan Theatre in Stratford Upon Avon. Its an amazing play, I had already watched it in 2010(last year) at Hampstead Theatre, my friend Jay was in it(Shout Out To Jay Sentrosi) he was in the chorus alongside another guy called Jeremy Irvine...know the name? Well you will soon. This guy is starring in War Horse being Directed by thee Steven Spilberg, Acting alongside Helen Bowem Carter & is also in another film in production called Now Is Good, acting alongside Kayla Scodelario(Skins). So basically last year he had a part time job and was doing Dunsinane and now..well...
Just crazy how much and how fast things can change if you carry on believing and working hard(If you don't believe in yourself no one will) It's like I told everyone I'm getting into drama school on first time, most people don't believe me and want to see me fail. The reason why I told you/them is because I'm trying to show you the greatness I already see(don't mean that in a cocky way) but the things I see are like....
Those who only see with their eyes and not with their mind are easily fooled....- Remember that.
I'm done talking now, leave you with this quote By Stella Adler(don't ask me who she is do your research) "We are what we do, not what we say"
So I've been meaning to write a blog, but have been keeping myself Busy, thats good right?(Hears a voice yes it is)
So basically on the 25th & 26th of July the BRIT School For Performing Arts Toured our productions of Henry VI Trilogy in Stratford Upon Avon(Shakespeare's Home) at the Dell Outdoor Theatre. It was a really amazing theatre, 1) cause were performing and we(actors) get a buzz off performing and 2)were touring our show and 3) cause its for the RSC(Royal Shakespeare Company) those are like 3 amazing things all in one opportunity.
Performing outside was an interesting challenge cause Ive actually never done it before and there is so many things to think about when performing, with loudness being a pivotal one, but yeah basically It was just another one of those moments where you get excited for the future and the love for the art really comes out. You go back home thinking WOW completely RANDOM people watched your show, people from another part of the country enjoyed themselves watching your show and these are things that will be occurring more often in a few years time(Movies and Plays). It's like as the days go on and on the passion grows and grows, and the determination and the work rate thickens and thickens. Some People are born 100% with IT the acting(naturally talented at it) and some people aren't but have a love for it and work for it and work hard, till it eventually becomes a Skill, and that overcomes talent, but no matter how the art has come to you, both ways you still need to work for it to become a skill.
We also went to see Dunsinane by David Greig(Amazing writrer, really passionate too about Scotland check his other plays) at the Swan Theatre in Stratford Upon Avon. Its an amazing play, I had already watched it in 2010(last year) at Hampstead Theatre, my friend Jay was in it(Shout Out To Jay Sentrosi) he was in the chorus alongside another guy called Jeremy Irvine...know the name? Well you will soon. This guy is starring in War Horse being Directed by thee Steven Spilberg, Acting alongside Helen Bowem Carter & is also in another film in production called Now Is Good, acting alongside Kayla Scodelario(Skins). So basically last year he had a part time job and was doing Dunsinane and now..well...
Just crazy how much and how fast things can change if you carry on believing and working hard(If you don't believe in yourself no one will) It's like I told everyone I'm getting into drama school on first time, most people don't believe me and want to see me fail. The reason why I told you/them is because I'm trying to show you the greatness I already see(don't mean that in a cocky way) but the things I see are like....
Those who only see with their eyes and not with their mind are easily fooled....- Remember that.
I'm done talking now, leave you with this quote By Stella Adler(don't ask me who she is do your research) "We are what we do, not what we say"
Saturday, 18 June 2011
Willing....
Central School of Speech and Drama..yep, thats the place I want to go to and its come to that point in my life where I start looking for Drama Schools and Universities. Crazy how when your younger everything in life seems to go so slow and you want it to go faster, to get older, make your own choices, be your own boss and make your own decisions. Then you get older and everything seems to be happening and coming so fast and you got to not only make your own decisions but hopefully make the right ones, Its an exciting but nervous time for many people, some people will base their choices on taking risks(ME) and some wont...I guess the main difference is Fear.
So like since I was 14 I've been part of this young theatre comapny called Heat & Light at Hampstead Theatre, really reccommend it for people like 17 and under and the director Debra Glazer is someone I owe so much to she's amazing but thats another story. We would often go to Central Drama school sometimes to rehearse and I just fell in love with the place, I remember everytime I'd go there I'd have this big cheesy smile as if it was Christmas, seeing all these students walking in, out and around the building and thinking "wow they're so cool, I want to be like them, I want to come here" Got to the point where I rememebr like one day turning up to Swiss Cottage, and sitting outside Hampstead Theatre watching the Central School students walking out and talking to each other and some rehearsing, watched this for two hours, Crazy right? But I guess when you truly are inspired or feel like a feeling you don't feel often your body your mindset wants to feel that feeling again and that's what Central made me feel like I had that feeling with BRIT School too.
So I guess now its just putting in the work to make it there, be an OFFICIAL Student of Central School of Speech & Drama in September 2012 studying a BA in Acting. I will be applying for other Drama Schools such as RADA, Rose Bruford, LAMDA, RWCMD & Guildhall(Yeah yeah I know its alot and I am aware you have to pay for an audition), but I really want to and feel the need to go to Drama School & learn more skills and develop even more on the ones I have. I kind of think now the more people read my blog or the more people understand and talk to me they realise almost how deluded I am, how much of a dreamer I am. I reckon even some of my teachers think so aswell cause I got this love hate thing going on with diction so I'm always working EXTRA hard on that and some of them like 3/6 really think I can get into Drama school next year, but I reckon like the other 3 are like really? On your first try? LOL and I guess some of my friends well I don't know...they probably see me as like I said earlier just DELUDED someone that thinks too positive and like someone who isn't realistic....you know what I say? "being realistic is the most commonly traveled road to mediocrity"
With this blog done, its back to work/training....
Skill is being willing working at something until you’re either really good at it, or you die getting good at it. - Will Smith
Having a skill and not nurturing it and practising at it is almost like taking it for granted - Aubrey "Drake" Graham
P.S. Kirstin Scott Thomas went Central, do you know how AMAZING She is? one of the most underrated actresses ever, she is recognised but doesn't get enough credit, & so did Andrew Garfield he is an amazing young actor, might remember him from Social Network playing Eduardo Saverin, he has such a big future ahead of him. LOADS of amazing actors went central but I rate those two SOO highly
So like since I was 14 I've been part of this young theatre comapny called Heat & Light at Hampstead Theatre, really reccommend it for people like 17 and under and the director Debra Glazer is someone I owe so much to she's amazing but thats another story. We would often go to Central Drama school sometimes to rehearse and I just fell in love with the place, I remember everytime I'd go there I'd have this big cheesy smile as if it was Christmas, seeing all these students walking in, out and around the building and thinking "wow they're so cool, I want to be like them, I want to come here" Got to the point where I rememebr like one day turning up to Swiss Cottage, and sitting outside Hampstead Theatre watching the Central School students walking out and talking to each other and some rehearsing, watched this for two hours, Crazy right? But I guess when you truly are inspired or feel like a feeling you don't feel often your body your mindset wants to feel that feeling again and that's what Central made me feel like I had that feeling with BRIT School too.
So I guess now its just putting in the work to make it there, be an OFFICIAL Student of Central School of Speech & Drama in September 2012 studying a BA in Acting. I will be applying for other Drama Schools such as RADA, Rose Bruford, LAMDA, RWCMD & Guildhall(Yeah yeah I know its alot and I am aware you have to pay for an audition), but I really want to and feel the need to go to Drama School & learn more skills and develop even more on the ones I have. I kind of think now the more people read my blog or the more people understand and talk to me they realise almost how deluded I am, how much of a dreamer I am. I reckon even some of my teachers think so aswell cause I got this love hate thing going on with diction so I'm always working EXTRA hard on that and some of them like 3/6 really think I can get into Drama school next year, but I reckon like the other 3 are like really? On your first try? LOL and I guess some of my friends well I don't know...they probably see me as like I said earlier just DELUDED someone that thinks too positive and like someone who isn't realistic....you know what I say? "being realistic is the most commonly traveled road to mediocrity"
With this blog done, its back to work/training....
Skill is being willing working at something until you’re either really good at it, or you die getting good at it. - Will Smith
Having a skill and not nurturing it and practising at it is almost like taking it for granted - Aubrey "Drake" Graham
P.S. Kirstin Scott Thomas went Central, do you know how AMAZING She is? one of the most underrated actresses ever, she is recognised but doesn't get enough credit, & so did Andrew Garfield he is an amazing young actor, might remember him from Social Network playing Eduardo Saverin, he has such a big future ahead of him. LOADS of amazing actors went central but I rate those two SOO highly
Wednesday, 8 June 2011
Some questions to me
Name: Jesse Miz Travie Gassongo-Alexander
Origin: French/Congolease
D.O.B. 30/09/1993, Born in France, Paris to be more specific north of Paris In A place called fontainebleau.
First acting experience, playing a Mexican musketeer in year 4(10 years old) I was a chubby kid and I had to wear those tight trousers that horse riders have and the size they got me was too small but I didn't want to let them down so I had to wear them and I remember everyone just laughing at me and having a facial expression as if they were thinking "you are on fat ass kid" lool
I knew I wanted to be an actor after I failed in football lol kept getting trials for pro clubs and not getting signed but I was doing shows without even realizing how much I enjoyed them, my new years resolution for 2009 was to Focus on acting give it a shot, see what happens....
I see myself as someone like really social, I like meeting new people. If you've been with me in education then I get refered as the class clown, but at the same time I'm like so determined and ambitious to the extent where people almost see me as deluded, but I don't think anyone that was great or is great was not seen as deluded before. I'm really outspoken and like almost cheesy sometimes with my quotes on dreams etc, but I feel like sometimes I'm talking for the people who are to shy to say what they're thinking...am I making any sense?
An Emotional trait that i would like to change is this kind of barrier I have to girls, like I'm kind of messed if I was to be honest where I only sleep with girls or have them as friends almost too scared for a relationship so I have this barrier which I don't bring down cause I don't want to get hurt, funny thing Is I brought it down for someone and got Hurt Real bad recently, lool to most people it wouldn't have been that bad but like growing up for like half of my life with just my mum and sister and like all of my aunties I think I took like an emotional soft kind of side from them, so I fall real hard for girls, so I kind of wish that side of me could like drop and go or that I know how to control my emotions a bit better.
Traits I think people like in me are like that Im sociable, open minded and possibly a warm person?
Traits I think people may not like about me is that I may be too much, that my determination may come across as arrogance?
Traits I like in people? I find a Trait that I like in everyone...
My BIGGEST FEAR is to leave this place called BRIT School & just become a bum like I'm working and dreaming about this dream too hard for it all to crash. This dream is for me and Im doing it for me cause its what I wanna do, but like with all the support I get from some old friends and teachers and my mum and family, It gets to the point where I wanna do it for them too so like yeah like my biggest fear is just not being able to do what ive always dreamed of doing, to fail in life to die before I achieve the greatness that I dream of achieving..
These were like some questions I was asked by my director alongside with some of my fellow cast members, and it just felt good to get it out. Like when people talk to me I want them to feel comfortable and as if they know me well, so yeah that was like the EXPOSURE blog...done
Origin: French/Congolease
D.O.B. 30/09/1993, Born in France, Paris to be more specific north of Paris In A place called fontainebleau.
First acting experience, playing a Mexican musketeer in year 4(10 years old) I was a chubby kid and I had to wear those tight trousers that horse riders have and the size they got me was too small but I didn't want to let them down so I had to wear them and I remember everyone just laughing at me and having a facial expression as if they were thinking "you are on fat ass kid" lool
I knew I wanted to be an actor after I failed in football lol kept getting trials for pro clubs and not getting signed but I was doing shows without even realizing how much I enjoyed them, my new years resolution for 2009 was to Focus on acting give it a shot, see what happens....
I see myself as someone like really social, I like meeting new people. If you've been with me in education then I get refered as the class clown, but at the same time I'm like so determined and ambitious to the extent where people almost see me as deluded, but I don't think anyone that was great or is great was not seen as deluded before. I'm really outspoken and like almost cheesy sometimes with my quotes on dreams etc, but I feel like sometimes I'm talking for the people who are to shy to say what they're thinking...am I making any sense?
An Emotional trait that i would like to change is this kind of barrier I have to girls, like I'm kind of messed if I was to be honest where I only sleep with girls or have them as friends almost too scared for a relationship so I have this barrier which I don't bring down cause I don't want to get hurt, funny thing Is I brought it down for someone and got Hurt Real bad recently, lool to most people it wouldn't have been that bad but like growing up for like half of my life with just my mum and sister and like all of my aunties I think I took like an emotional soft kind of side from them, so I fall real hard for girls, so I kind of wish that side of me could like drop and go or that I know how to control my emotions a bit better.
Traits I think people like in me are like that Im sociable, open minded and possibly a warm person?
Traits I think people may not like about me is that I may be too much, that my determination may come across as arrogance?
Traits I like in people? I find a Trait that I like in everyone...
My BIGGEST FEAR is to leave this place called BRIT School & just become a bum like I'm working and dreaming about this dream too hard for it all to crash. This dream is for me and Im doing it for me cause its what I wanna do, but like with all the support I get from some old friends and teachers and my mum and family, It gets to the point where I wanna do it for them too so like yeah like my biggest fear is just not being able to do what ive always dreamed of doing, to fail in life to die before I achieve the greatness that I dream of achieving..
These were like some questions I was asked by my director alongside with some of my fellow cast members, and it just felt good to get it out. Like when people talk to me I want them to feel comfortable and as if they know me well, so yeah that was like the EXPOSURE blog...done
Sunday, 5 June 2011
You Bore Me...I'm Yawning You Just Can't See Me
1st of June 2011, not saying how I'm famous or some shit, but what do I call them?Haters? Weird how you trying to do positive brings out the negative in someone. Weird how I don't think I had anything to write this week until I got this shit prank-call from.... what you call them... haters? losers? "we check your twitter, know what you are? Your a loser, your not going to be a actor, you haven't got supporters, you sound like a FAKE, you've changed! What's up with your hair? Where are you now in America? Joke your at home" These are just a few of the comments that came out from them, to me it's like whatever, but it's the fact it's from people who probably know me, and aint happy that I'm chasing something I've dreamed about...weird right? So your idea of having a good night out is attempting to prank call someone and say things like that...sounds like a good night out right?
Whatever really mum always told me someone or people saying negative means your doing something right so keep doing what your doing. Another weird thing is I think it'd be really shit if I took it to heart and went in my room somewhere and started crying and slitting my writs but It just motivates me you know what I mean? Like I been going Cinema quite alot recently and its Inspiring you know dreaming that one day that could be your film up there, that could be kids choosing to go on orange wednesday to see a film your in, or a couple going out to watch a movie cause your in it...that could be your film thats up there that could eventually inspire someone else to want act, it could be your performance that changes someones life or view on a subject they had prior to the film...Its beautiful & Crazy how just maybe me doing something I love can bring out the some positive...the negativity will always be there its just how much you let it affect the positive that counts
"If you don't like me remember its mind over matter; I don't mind and you don't matter."
"opinions aint facts take them and let em go"
Whatever really mum always told me someone or people saying negative means your doing something right so keep doing what your doing. Another weird thing is I think it'd be really shit if I took it to heart and went in my room somewhere and started crying and slitting my writs but It just motivates me you know what I mean? Like I been going Cinema quite alot recently and its Inspiring you know dreaming that one day that could be your film up there, that could be kids choosing to go on orange wednesday to see a film your in, or a couple going out to watch a movie cause your in it...that could be your film thats up there that could eventually inspire someone else to want act, it could be your performance that changes someones life or view on a subject they had prior to the film...Its beautiful & Crazy how just maybe me doing something I love can bring out the some positive...the negativity will always be there its just how much you let it affect the positive that counts
"If you don't like me remember its mind over matter; I don't mind and you don't matter."
"opinions aint facts take them and let em go"
Friday, 27 May 2011
I Dream more when I'm awake than when I'm asleep
Prologue: People sometimes get the impression having an agent if you do acting or having a label if your in a band or singer is the breakthrough like the big moment, like your raise to stardom, well let me tell you something...ITS NOT!! My Idelogy which I created myself is Not having an agent or a label is like being born prematurely and having an agent is like being born on time. There's not a massive difference your both born, you both still have to learn how to walk and talk etc, you both still have to put in hard work.
26th May 2011, another audition, today's one for a drama. Routine for audition day, wake up have a fat ass breakfast, watch drakes documentary "Better Than Good enough"(cause that shits inspiring to me) shower, voice exercises, prayer and off to the audition.
When I get to the audition I like to get there early, there's this stereotype that black people are always late(LOL)..I break the stereotype in todays case I done more than break the stereotype(got there two hours early) but yeah get to the audition room, and it's that waiting process now, never really been to an audition where they're running on time so your always waiting, depending on how organised they are sometimes they have like a receptionist or someone to that equivalent apologising for the delay, you get to a stage where you start seeing familiar faces from previous auditions or tv shows, get used to seeing parents "fixing" their kids, girlfriends/boyfriends with their partner who's auditioning, the kid that's extremely nervous cause it's their first ever audition, the extremely confident and almost vain looking dude sitting down trying to maintain a Hollywood smile just in case their looking for a new zac effron, and not to forget the broken air con so its pretty much always hot, its repetitive this process but you get used to it.
Get into the audition now and the way I've always approached them is to just be yourself really, like show them me, the nice person that people say I am, the charm(lol) well I say always approached them that but thats so hard. Like its hard and alot of the times I don't do that and I reckon thats what lets me down, cause casting directors and assisant directors are looking for not only the right person but also someone thats going to be a breath of fresh air on set, they dont want a complete dick whose too relaxed or a bum suck and I reckon were most people fail in the audition room too yeah the look is alot but its like 75% of it the other 10% on your look on the character, and 15% is what your personality brings to the table.
Sometimes its easy just to be in an audition room and be a bumsuck without even knowing I'm being one, the whole enviouriment of it being an audition and it possibly being my lucky break to almost start my career. The thing you want so much, that you breathe, eat, sleep and even shit about. To be able to start this career that I've always dreamed of, working with people I see as idols and inspire to achieve the things they have and even go beyond that, achieve Oscars, BAFTA's, Cannes Film Festival Awards. The dream of being able to give my mum the things she's always wanted and couldn't have, like I dream of taking my mum to westfilds and buying out the whole LV, Gucci,Prada, Swarvoski store (LOL) I say my mum but I mean my whole family, but my mum so much, I think she's so strong, definatley the strongest person I know male or female she got the skirt but would put on the trousers if needed, & she's sick too but to think she still works her ass off for us to get what we wanted, I think thats incredible wanting to make someone so happy. shes one of the few people who loves me I think uncodinationally & I reckon one day to be able to give her everything she dreams of would be....(speechless) It gets emotional because I want it so bad, like I'd be a liar if I told you I have never doubted I'd make it, being dropped from projects is crazy, not getting the part, audition after audition, how many times can the human mind take rejection? Like I say I'm doing this for me cause it's what i want to do but not only for me because I know what It could it for others.
People that support me like people supporting me(dont mean like a fan) but just someone geuinley supporting another person is like wow, for you to believe in someone elses dream is beautiful one of the most beautiful things ive seen in life. reckon loads of people say they want something but dont actually want it if that makes sense, they say they believe in it but dont actually believe in it,they say they feel it but have never felt it, and I'm saying all these things in relation to what they want to be or do, in my case acting, so for someone to see it in you is deep.
There's a certain level of insanity necessary for greatness. All pioneers were once considered delusional at some point. <<Yup thats me, I dream more when I'm awake than when I'm asleep. There was like so much emotions running through zee mind in this post I wonder if it even makes any sense, cba to check it, its a freestyle
So this post is finished now, you gonna laugh?
Saturday, 21 May 2011
Random Post....Felt like a mix between Martina Cole, Jackie Collins and Gandhi
So today's the 20th and I released these notes I used to keep on my phone to the world, the feedback was amazing, a lot of people felt they could relate to it and shit, how they had been inspired in different ways(felt like Gandhi), thats dope for me cause when I started writing these things they were purely for me on how I felt didnt ever think anyone could really relate and then because I was bored on the tube,train,bus or because I waiting for someone and also because I wanted to write down these feelings instead of keeping all this shit in my head cause believe it or not sometimes it gets too much(lol) and writing shit down does help(never thought I'd say that) sound like some depressed kid lol.
This post is probably the weirdest one of all and it might not relate to as many people as the others, but have you ever felt like your career that you have chosen in my case acting, really don't wanna use this word but can't think of any others but distracts your social life or even has a grapple on it. Like your so busy with this dream and working on it in different ways that you can't always give people as much love and attention they want, weather it be your girlfriend/boyfriend or friend or even some cases family members, and they just don't understand when you try to explain to them?
I have this very problem now, where I be liking this girl alot, and there was a time where she was liking me but she said I didn't show her enough interest or didn't seem interested some ish like that, But that's never been the case she just didn't understand how busy I was, sometimes I get the impression no one does,and now she all loved up with someone....crap ass feeling cause I don't see myself with anyone else For now anyway, probably looks like a pretty weird ass and shit ass post but I feel like I needed to talk to someone at this moment in time and I came to you. Take a look at celebs they tend to be dating someone in and around the industry very few have succesfully had a relationship with someoene who is not in the industry, why? "were in two seperate worlds" "ours jobs clash" the execuse and reasons go on and on...Lol looking all love sick, but this kind of brings up the question can you only be in a serious relationship with someone who is in or around the same industry as you? Or can you naturally expect someone to just understand what your trying to do?
And sex gets boring too, when your constantly just fucking not even people you have feelings for but, just F-U-C-King weather it be slow sex or rough hardcore sex, her riding and screaming your name, asking for it harder and harder, her telling you to stop it hurts too much(not bragging lol) but it gets boring...that awkward moment when it's done and your putting your clothes on and she's on the bed lying down or in the bathroom...the awkward convo "okay, I'm gone" "nice meeting you" "don't tell no one" "that was mad" it gets repetitive. None of the lying on the bed side by side looking into each others eyes with the bed quilt sitting on your chest, holding hands none of that titanic romantic shit because you have no feelings for each other and after the sex you just want to get up and go, get the train,tram,car or bus and just go home...
I doubt this post is like beneficial to anyone or if anyone feels the same or whatever, but I guess the way I kind of look at things is work now have fun later? I use that saying but I lie at the same time cause I have loads of fun now lol....but like I asked earlier isit possible to be in a relationship with someone who is not in same position/industry as you isit possible for you to keep all your friends original and new in chase of this dream?...expect to hear a million people blatantly say yes it is...but actually think about it, take longer than the usual second, and dont come up with an extremely cheesy answer.. anyway back to watching the movie Blue Velvet reccomended by a friend of mine check it out pretty good, but extremely weird...
This post is probably the weirdest one of all and it might not relate to as many people as the others, but have you ever felt like your career that you have chosen in my case acting, really don't wanna use this word but can't think of any others but distracts your social life or even has a grapple on it. Like your so busy with this dream and working on it in different ways that you can't always give people as much love and attention they want, weather it be your girlfriend/boyfriend or friend or even some cases family members, and they just don't understand when you try to explain to them?
I have this very problem now, where I be liking this girl alot, and there was a time where she was liking me but she said I didn't show her enough interest or didn't seem interested some ish like that, But that's never been the case she just didn't understand how busy I was, sometimes I get the impression no one does,and now she all loved up with someone....crap ass feeling cause I don't see myself with anyone else For now anyway, probably looks like a pretty weird ass and shit ass post but I feel like I needed to talk to someone at this moment in time and I came to you. Take a look at celebs they tend to be dating someone in and around the industry very few have succesfully had a relationship with someoene who is not in the industry, why? "were in two seperate worlds" "ours jobs clash" the execuse and reasons go on and on...Lol looking all love sick, but this kind of brings up the question can you only be in a serious relationship with someone who is in or around the same industry as you? Or can you naturally expect someone to just understand what your trying to do?
And sex gets boring too, when your constantly just fucking not even people you have feelings for but, just F-U-C-King weather it be slow sex or rough hardcore sex, her riding and screaming your name, asking for it harder and harder, her telling you to stop it hurts too much(not bragging lol) but it gets boring...that awkward moment when it's done and your putting your clothes on and she's on the bed lying down or in the bathroom...the awkward convo "okay, I'm gone" "nice meeting you" "don't tell no one" "that was mad" it gets repetitive. None of the lying on the bed side by side looking into each others eyes with the bed quilt sitting on your chest, holding hands none of that titanic romantic shit because you have no feelings for each other and after the sex you just want to get up and go, get the train,tram,car or bus and just go home...
I doubt this post is like beneficial to anyone or if anyone feels the same or whatever, but I guess the way I kind of look at things is work now have fun later? I use that saying but I lie at the same time cause I have loads of fun now lol....but like I asked earlier isit possible to be in a relationship with someone who is not in same position/industry as you isit possible for you to keep all your friends original and new in chase of this dream?...expect to hear a million people blatantly say yes it is...but actually think about it, take longer than the usual second, and dont come up with an extremely cheesy answer.. anyway back to watching the movie Blue Velvet reccomended by a friend of mine check it out pretty good, but extremely weird...
Friday, 20 May 2011
Last Minute Swap,A Showcase, Best Hip Hop Concert Of My Life and the Departure of A Special Person
This week been busy as F**K sorry to swear was listening to Tyler, The Creator and felt the need to swear. So were on post what..4, 5, 6? I cant be bothered to hit the reload button and check? Loving it? No Your hating it probably, what would you have learn't from reading these blog posts...erm I'm a DREAMER very cheesy at time and I randomly put capital letters in words Because...I don't know yet, but let me get to this post...
So on monday 20/05/11 the beginning of this week I was expecting to be told I was being directed by Harley Cameron(amazing young director) for the play Croatons written by Lily Nichol(amazing young actor who can now write too..) No point in searching them on google 1)cause it's stalkerish and 2)cause they're not famous... YET!! But turned out I got a late transfer into another play called Pills written by Paige Fiddler being directed by Wilma Mukendi. The play is good don't get me wrong but I had a special connection with the play Croatons as I had an input(a scene has my dream inside it) and I really wanted to be directed by Harley Cameron as she's amazing and really knows her stuff and is so knowledgable on what she wants to do which is directing and is incredible when you look at how old she is(17). But I guess its not meant to be, in the sense were not meant to work together for now, but the director that I got now is basically exactly the same as Harley only difference is she's black and has weave cause she is Wilma Mukendi pretty amazing too, exactly the same so ahead of her time in the sense of knowledge she has for directing...Thinking about it they should get together and talk...could talk about talents this year has all day but each post will contain someone....we perform these plays in 8 weeks btw
Also this week went to see the showcase for the BRIT School Year 13. For those of you who dont know what a showcase is, its a showing of the best talent you the school, company, can offer and you invite a bunch of important people to see this from agencies, directors, casting directors and so on to view these people performing Monologues and Dualogues. They only pick "the best, la creme of la creme" so like 14 people out of 60 people...being in attendance and watching the year 13s being in the position I want to be next year was inspirational and nerve racking at the same time as I had someof my closest friends up thre and just hoped the would do so well. The show went well and today I found out some of them got approached by some of the top agents...*dreams of next year now*
Went to Wiz Khalifa concert was AMAZING best of concert been to..thought I'd put that in there..Hip Hop concerts are the best I'm telling you, its like a massive rave with cool family members.
Wrapping this up now today(20/05/11) a very special person who I have only known for 8 months was now departing from my life. Phil Gunderson aka Mr Muscle(he appeared in the advert) had been teaching at the BRIT School Theatre Department for 13 years teaching the likes of Ashley Thomas(Bashy), Ashley Madekwe, Nathan Stewart Jarret and many more. He had taught me so much in little time, as he was leaving he told me and this other boy Ben Colbourne "Your Gonna Make it" could be seen as him being nice, but when your in this industry and just me in general you take things like that seriously and like i said in an earlier posts, praise and belief from other people is almost like a fuse that ignites this dream even more..its crazy but beautiful...
This post is probably turning and looking like genesis so I should really stop..well there's not much more I can think of so thats it for this posts, thanks for reading if you have.
So on monday 20/05/11 the beginning of this week I was expecting to be told I was being directed by Harley Cameron(amazing young director) for the play Croatons written by Lily Nichol(amazing young actor who can now write too..) No point in searching them on google 1)cause it's stalkerish and 2)cause they're not famous... YET!! But turned out I got a late transfer into another play called Pills written by Paige Fiddler being directed by Wilma Mukendi. The play is good don't get me wrong but I had a special connection with the play Croatons as I had an input(a scene has my dream inside it) and I really wanted to be directed by Harley Cameron as she's amazing and really knows her stuff and is so knowledgable on what she wants to do which is directing and is incredible when you look at how old she is(17). But I guess its not meant to be, in the sense were not meant to work together for now, but the director that I got now is basically exactly the same as Harley only difference is she's black and has weave cause she is Wilma Mukendi pretty amazing too, exactly the same so ahead of her time in the sense of knowledge she has for directing...Thinking about it they should get together and talk...could talk about talents this year has all day but each post will contain someone....we perform these plays in 8 weeks btw
Also this week went to see the showcase for the BRIT School Year 13. For those of you who dont know what a showcase is, its a showing of the best talent you the school, company, can offer and you invite a bunch of important people to see this from agencies, directors, casting directors and so on to view these people performing Monologues and Dualogues. They only pick "the best, la creme of la creme" so like 14 people out of 60 people...being in attendance and watching the year 13s being in the position I want to be next year was inspirational and nerve racking at the same time as I had someof my closest friends up thre and just hoped the would do so well. The show went well and today I found out some of them got approached by some of the top agents...*dreams of next year now*
Went to Wiz Khalifa concert was AMAZING best of concert been to..thought I'd put that in there..Hip Hop concerts are the best I'm telling you, its like a massive rave with cool family members.
Wrapping this up now today(20/05/11) a very special person who I have only known for 8 months was now departing from my life. Phil Gunderson aka Mr Muscle(he appeared in the advert) had been teaching at the BRIT School Theatre Department for 13 years teaching the likes of Ashley Thomas(Bashy), Ashley Madekwe, Nathan Stewart Jarret and many more. He had taught me so much in little time, as he was leaving he told me and this other boy Ben Colbourne "Your Gonna Make it" could be seen as him being nice, but when your in this industry and just me in general you take things like that seriously and like i said in an earlier posts, praise and belief from other people is almost like a fuse that ignites this dream even more..its crazy but beautiful...
This post is probably turning and looking like genesis so I should really stop..well there's not much more I can think of so thats it for this posts, thanks for reading if you have.
Was looking forward to this one(Brand New Post)
Monday 16th May 2011, The day of the assessment. A Shakespeare assessment, a dualogue that me & the amazing Georgia James as i was saying in earlier blogs had rehearsed,the legendary act 2 scene 2 "Macbeth shall sleep no more". Yeah that one, dreamed constantly of putting out and doing this amazing scene that would blow people's mind, well I guess today must of been the nightmare, because it didn't go as well as we dreamed of it.
It was just flat, and I didn't feel like I gave my best at all. That's the most annoying thing especially when you have worked so hard on it. Even though the audience seemed to enjoy it, us using KETCHUP as we couldn't get any fake blood the judges, the teachers(voice expert teachers) didn't, and I was shown that by the grade given to me. It's a situation where you think, if only they knew how hard I worked on it, if only they knew. One of those situations where you think to yourself, why am I even trying? Coming in an hour earlier than everyone else and leaving hours later just rehearsing and training...isit worth it? Do these people have a personal hate against me? Or do these people have extremely high expectations of me and expect me to be at a certain level and just want to push me. You begin to ask yourself all these questions and have mixed feelings of anger, frustration and disappointment. Anger at your grade and the teachers, frustration at your performance wanting to do it again and disapointment at the teachers not knowing and understanding how much work you put in, and disappointment in yourself. But I guess this is the journey you chose, the risk you took, the contract you signed, agreeing with yourself of the setbacks you would meet on this journey, it's also you(me) overreacting, and if you think this is bad remember the day before you were supposed to shoot for the coca cola advert and you got dropped... It's a shit feeling but remember to look at all the positives and stop worrying about the negatives, and carry on learning.
Frustrated Post...
It was just flat, and I didn't feel like I gave my best at all. That's the most annoying thing especially when you have worked so hard on it. Even though the audience seemed to enjoy it, us using KETCHUP as we couldn't get any fake blood the judges, the teachers(voice expert teachers) didn't, and I was shown that by the grade given to me. It's a situation where you think, if only they knew how hard I worked on it, if only they knew. One of those situations where you think to yourself, why am I even trying? Coming in an hour earlier than everyone else and leaving hours later just rehearsing and training...isit worth it? Do these people have a personal hate against me? Or do these people have extremely high expectations of me and expect me to be at a certain level and just want to push me. You begin to ask yourself all these questions and have mixed feelings of anger, frustration and disappointment. Anger at your grade and the teachers, frustration at your performance wanting to do it again and disapointment at the teachers not knowing and understanding how much work you put in, and disappointment in yourself. But I guess this is the journey you chose, the risk you took, the contract you signed, agreeing with yourself of the setbacks you would meet on this journey, it's also you(me) overreacting, and if you think this is bad remember the day before you were supposed to shoot for the coca cola advert and you got dropped... It's a shit feeling but remember to look at all the positives and stop worrying about the negatives, and carry on learning.
Frustrated Post...
Post 3 of the Diary...Performance of zee Shakespeare Show
Wow so the Shakespeare season performance season is now over well at school, next time we perform it will be some time in June or July in Stratford Upon Avon home of Sir William Shakespeare.Its the 8th of May, and I havent payed my phone bill I’m a week late oops might cut me off need to call them don’t know why I have put that here lol.
But yeah we performed to a sold out capacity show on Wednesday 4th May 2011, at the Brit School Obie Theatre to an audience of 150 people…Wow, as an ensemble the performance was incredible like wow never been in a production as good as that, you could feel the energy and everyone giving their best. I was playing two characters, Lord Clifford and Saunder Simpcox, my first character required me to play as if I was disabled, through Rehersals this character was not working at all and last minute I decided to change it completely and although it was a risk it paied off incredibly I had embodied this character and was Saunder Simpcox the reaction was incredible I could feel it the laughs and everyone’s eyes 110% on the scene the chorous and on me, an extremely beautiful feeling coming off stage knowing you had nailed the scene especially after weeks of doing it and not working, like one of my directors said “you just pulled it out the bag”.
The play was going fantastically incredible performances as an ensemble and as individual too, my second character Lord Clifford went well in most peoples eyes, to me it went really bad felt mechanical and fake like I wasn’t out of Simpcox yet to perform lord Clifford and as I delivered each line I felt like each line was being lost and I was trying to make the next one better and kept failing, it was an annoying feeling but the show had to go on. As I keep saying it was an amazing ensemble performances and some fantastic performances from Corey Montague Sholay who used to say he couldn’t act well and was only a BBC writer, boy was He wrong! Strong performance from him and I’m sure he turned alot of heads round lol we have a ben affleck on our cards, another great performance was by Sarah Vaughan she didn’t have a masive part and played 2 characters one a peasant called Bollingbroke and the other a rebel called Hume she was so phenemonal at this it seems so natural and easy to her it’s beautiful to watch good acting and she has that, shes someone on stage who might not be the first person you look at but once you look at her she is someone you will stare and watch for a long time and not forget her.She’s so amazing but does not know it ANNOYING but GOOD at the same time, depends actually but yeah Now Mr Andrew Crouch…Sir Andrew Crouch lol, remember the name and yes I have said it here and I can PROMISE you that this guy will be HUGE he is a breathtaking performer and on Wednesday 4th may he NAILED IT can’t put it in a better way there’s not much more I can say but that unless he says be doesn’t want to do this anymore he will be up there, can put my future earnings on it.
People left the theatre saying it was an amazing experience and amazing performance by an incredibly gifted cast, one with future stars and I can honestly believe this, remember I Said that this year is special, boy am I so confident I am right. Fridays show was surprisingly sold out again the show went better for me with one character but as a whole I still wasn’t happy, cause Simpcox then wasnt as good and Clifford was lol...but as an actor can you or should you ever be happy with a performance? But as a whole the performance felt like everyone was just getting through it, and it was our director Phil Gunderson Last ever directed show at BRIT SCHOOL so it was a special performance. As a said before the performance as on ensemble felt tired but individually one person that stood out for me was Hannah Caton, she had come in some critiscm due to her voice at times being rhythmatic and sounding very musical theatrish and before the show i was asking myself can she really do this? As she looked heartbroken, but boy did she prove the critics wrong, An AMAZING PERFORMACE! and this is another one to watch for future along with Georgia James who I didnt mention in this but she is super amazing, like she is phenomenal like not good but phenomenal and done her character more than justice. The cast had so many good people a Girl called Ije another girl called Chantelle Yeboah, My future housemate Alfie Webster playing someone who is completely the opposite of him, he plays a rebel an Anarchist, and he played this role so well created amazing pictures for the audience to view and it’s so nice to see him show people how good he was, because he worked hard on it, so proud lol!
The list goes on and on it was really a phenomenal cast can’t say it enough. Anyways my I’m getting off the tube now London bridge I am here have a meeting with some potential funders(ideas Tap) ciao bye adios
But yeah we performed to a sold out capacity show on Wednesday 4th May 2011, at the Brit School Obie Theatre to an audience of 150 people…Wow, as an ensemble the performance was incredible like wow never been in a production as good as that, you could feel the energy and everyone giving their best. I was playing two characters, Lord Clifford and Saunder Simpcox, my first character required me to play as if I was disabled, through Rehersals this character was not working at all and last minute I decided to change it completely and although it was a risk it paied off incredibly I had embodied this character and was Saunder Simpcox the reaction was incredible I could feel it the laughs and everyone’s eyes 110% on the scene the chorous and on me, an extremely beautiful feeling coming off stage knowing you had nailed the scene especially after weeks of doing it and not working, like one of my directors said “you just pulled it out the bag”.
The play was going fantastically incredible performances as an ensemble and as individual too, my second character Lord Clifford went well in most peoples eyes, to me it went really bad felt mechanical and fake like I wasn’t out of Simpcox yet to perform lord Clifford and as I delivered each line I felt like each line was being lost and I was trying to make the next one better and kept failing, it was an annoying feeling but the show had to go on. As I keep saying it was an amazing ensemble performances and some fantastic performances from Corey Montague Sholay who used to say he couldn’t act well and was only a BBC writer, boy was He wrong! Strong performance from him and I’m sure he turned alot of heads round lol we have a ben affleck on our cards, another great performance was by Sarah Vaughan she didn’t have a masive part and played 2 characters one a peasant called Bollingbroke and the other a rebel called Hume she was so phenemonal at this it seems so natural and easy to her it’s beautiful to watch good acting and she has that, shes someone on stage who might not be the first person you look at but once you look at her she is someone you will stare and watch for a long time and not forget her.She’s so amazing but does not know it ANNOYING but GOOD at the same time, depends actually but yeah Now Mr Andrew Crouch…Sir Andrew Crouch lol, remember the name and yes I have said it here and I can PROMISE you that this guy will be HUGE he is a breathtaking performer and on Wednesday 4th may he NAILED IT can’t put it in a better way there’s not much more I can say but that unless he says be doesn’t want to do this anymore he will be up there, can put my future earnings on it.
People left the theatre saying it was an amazing experience and amazing performance by an incredibly gifted cast, one with future stars and I can honestly believe this, remember I Said that this year is special, boy am I so confident I am right. Fridays show was surprisingly sold out again the show went better for me with one character but as a whole I still wasn’t happy, cause Simpcox then wasnt as good and Clifford was lol...but as an actor can you or should you ever be happy with a performance? But as a whole the performance felt like everyone was just getting through it, and it was our director Phil Gunderson Last ever directed show at BRIT SCHOOL so it was a special performance. As a said before the performance as on ensemble felt tired but individually one person that stood out for me was Hannah Caton, she had come in some critiscm due to her voice at times being rhythmatic and sounding very musical theatrish and before the show i was asking myself can she really do this? As she looked heartbroken, but boy did she prove the critics wrong, An AMAZING PERFORMACE! and this is another one to watch for future along with Georgia James who I didnt mention in this but she is super amazing, like she is phenomenal like not good but phenomenal and done her character more than justice. The cast had so many good people a Girl called Ije another girl called Chantelle Yeboah, My future housemate Alfie Webster playing someone who is completely the opposite of him, he plays a rebel an Anarchist, and he played this role so well created amazing pictures for the audience to view and it’s so nice to see him show people how good he was, because he worked hard on it, so proud lol!
The list goes on and on it was really a phenomenal cast can’t say it enough. Anyways my I’m getting off the tube now London bridge I am here have a meeting with some potential funders(ideas Tap) ciao bye adios
Trying to get this up to date, but reckon its DOPE so far?
3rd Post of The Acting Diary, Reckon This Is Dope?
What do I think of the show? Hated the play, grown to like it, hated my characters grown to like them, hated the director growen to love him. It’s one of those things where I really wish I had a bigger part and there are people who have bigger parts who I honestly think mmmmm, but is that just me or do most actors have that feeling "wish I had a bigger part" "how can they get that part" but I’ve grown to realise that people are coming to watch the show and this is where they will judge, and I may not have long on stage but I will attempt to make my scenes remembered. Plus the director knows what he wants and has more experience so need to just go with his judgement right? Also I’m part of an ensemble and we have become a family and I want all of the members of my family to do well, there is alot of very good actors in this family, names that you should/will remember after the show in 5days. When people come and watch our show they will be seeing some of the stars of the future, okay I’m going to stop now because I’m on the tube and I feel like the person next to me is attempting to look at what I’m writing and laughing LOL, until next time “Notes"
Second Post Of This Acting Diary I've Been Writing whenever I take time to reflect
Okay I haven’t done this in a long time, but today is the 28th of May 2011, and yes 2011 crazy right last post was like MONTHS ago, but today I just felt like writing because I done a shoot for RM Smart boards and it was AMAZING! like literally amazing, fun and productive, met some more people and also a boy who is considering wether or not to come to BRIT he got a place so I told him to make his choice wisely, but yeah off that!
Never had so much fun doing a shoot, I've done quite a few, NSPCC, Warner Bro's Theme Park, Tango, SB Language book, but yeah this one was soo much fun. The crew were amazing and fun and lovely people always looking after us and were also good in knowing what they wanted it and how they wanted it done. Make up artist Paul Xavier, was amazing, such a character and someone I hope to meet again, always laughing and making us(cast and crew) laugh, he has this distinctive chuckle that everyone just remembers, he got on well with me and this other girl named Makenna especially as we were older than the other 4 kids so he was allowed to be cheeky and no mind his langauge so much.
Shoot finished and we was hugging eachother in cast and crew and it’s just crazy to think how much I enjoyed the shoot and wouldn’t mind doing it for free, completly forgot about were getting paid, and that’s because we were doing our hobbie, crazy I'm doing something I lovedoing whilst getting paid for it to the extent where I completly forget its a JOB Aaaargh words can’t explain, how much I don't want these opportunties to stop.
So I’m on the tube now just listened to Jessie J(Ex Brit Student) singing Who You Are the acoustic version and She just says at the end “believe in yourself, know that you can achieve anything you put your mind too, be a go getter”and that just means so much to me, especially now at this very moment maybe cause I knew I loved doing what I do but now I actually felt it, and I havent felt that actual feeling in ages…so watch me be a go getter, write again soon x
Never had so much fun doing a shoot, I've done quite a few, NSPCC, Warner Bro's Theme Park, Tango, SB Language book, but yeah this one was soo much fun. The crew were amazing and fun and lovely people always looking after us and were also good in knowing what they wanted it and how they wanted it done. Make up artist Paul Xavier, was amazing, such a character and someone I hope to meet again, always laughing and making us(cast and crew) laugh, he has this distinctive chuckle that everyone just remembers, he got on well with me and this other girl named Makenna especially as we were older than the other 4 kids so he was allowed to be cheeky and no mind his langauge so much.
Shoot finished and we was hugging eachother in cast and crew and it’s just crazy to think how much I enjoyed the shoot and wouldn’t mind doing it for free, completly forgot about were getting paid, and that’s because we were doing our hobbie, crazy I'm doing something I lovedoing whilst getting paid for it to the extent where I completly forget its a JOB Aaaargh words can’t explain, how much I don't want these opportunties to stop.
So I’m on the tube now just listened to Jessie J(Ex Brit Student) singing Who You Are the acoustic version and She just says at the end “believe in yourself, know that you can achieve anything you put your mind too, be a go getter”and that just means so much to me, especially now at this very moment maybe cause I knew I loved doing what I do but now I actually felt it, and I havent felt that actual feeling in ages…so watch me be a go getter, write again soon x
Okay Bare With Me, I have this like acting diary I created and I'm going to start putting out here, hope you like..will probably hate it....I haven't changed anything like it say it's always a freestyle
Trying To Make A Personal Acting Diary…19-10-10…First time I’ve gone to rehearsal at hampstead theatre in like 3 weeks!!(I’m part of a young actors theatre company) Missed the other weeks cause of random stuff like illness. I came back with an attitude to let the director know that I am there and even if I missed the last couple of weeks i am still on point and one of the bests(in the sense I'ma work my ass off) I didn’t do this verbally like abusive or giving attitude, I done this by showing extreme positive attitude and providing good energy and a strong rehersal. I see this one as possibly my last heat and light performance, school and work and this is hard to juggle all at once and I’m just scraping it at the moment. I do have dreams of a space in the theatre being named after me and even performing on the main stage at Hampstead Theatre. This place has become special to me now, It’s opened my eyes to the beautful art that is performed on stage from my narrow mind which used to be “theatre is boring”.
I have learned So much from the people like Debra glazer(Director) and Sean Mahoney(mentor) and have made great friends like Layla, Cavell, Nickwitj,Jay, Victoria. The aim now is to just seriously become the best, that’s what I wanna become, to be known as the best..like eminem says “Success Is My Only Mothafuckin Option Failures NOT”
I have learned So much from the people like Debra glazer(Director) and Sean Mahoney(mentor) and have made great friends like Layla, Cavell, Nickwitj,Jay, Victoria. The aim now is to just seriously become the best, that’s what I wanna become, to be known as the best..like eminem says “Success Is My Only Mothafuckin Option Failures NOT”
Tumblr's Cool, but I got bored of Just Pictures, I wanted some text, some emotion
Wrote This On 11/05/11
Yeah Tumblr, supposed to be a blog right not just a picture blog right? Cause Blogs filled with just pictures BORES ME like its not DOPE its just NOT NOT NOT DOPE!
Got have some text in here some emotions, some thoughts…don’t you agree? For Now its all just people reblogging the same pictures OVER AND OVER AND OVER again...Still have love for Tumblr though...
So I told you in the last post I’m an actor…in training and FAME-LESS..
So tonight I was helping out at school…Zee BRIT School and one of the heads of Theatre Department who is also the deputy of the school came up to me and explained how some of the teachers had seen me coming in an hour earlier then everyone else so before school starts and warming up by myself and getting myself ready, he continued to say that this is extreme dedication and said he can see me “making it”.
It’s crazy to think how words of praise and encouragement like that can really inspire you and push you even more to achieve those dreams of yours in my case its acting but whatever your dream is sometimes words of encouragement or praise can give you a smile that nice feeling inside you that makes you want to push even more…make you believe abit more in your self, seeing people notice how much you want this dream of yours, get me?
I Just feel happy to be honest, I don’t double check what I wrote so if there is grammer mistakes or literature mistakes I apologise but when I’m writing I want it to be a freestyle a DOPE freestyle so it’s completley honest and real…
30 YEARS Since Bob Marley Died, so ONE LOVE
Yeah Tumblr, supposed to be a blog right not just a picture blog right? Cause Blogs filled with just pictures BORES ME like its not DOPE its just NOT NOT NOT DOPE!
Got have some text in here some emotions, some thoughts…don’t you agree? For Now its all just people reblogging the same pictures OVER AND OVER AND OVER again...Still have love for Tumblr though...
So I told you in the last post I’m an actor…in training and FAME-LESS..
So tonight I was helping out at school…Zee BRIT School and one of the heads of Theatre Department who is also the deputy of the school came up to me and explained how some of the teachers had seen me coming in an hour earlier then everyone else so before school starts and warming up by myself and getting myself ready, he continued to say that this is extreme dedication and said he can see me “making it”.
It’s crazy to think how words of praise and encouragement like that can really inspire you and push you even more to achieve those dreams of yours in my case its acting but whatever your dream is sometimes words of encouragement or praise can give you a smile that nice feeling inside you that makes you want to push even more…make you believe abit more in your self, seeing people notice how much you want this dream of yours, get me?
I Just feel happy to be honest, I don’t double check what I wrote so if there is grammer mistakes or literature mistakes I apologise but when I’m writing I want it to be a freestyle a DOPE freestyle so it’s completley honest and real…
30 YEARS Since Bob Marley Died, so ONE LOVE
Trying To Be A Dope Ass Actor..
This Dope Ass Tumblr For A Dope Ass Dude That Is Trying To Be A Dope Ass Actor..Okay I Should Really Stop Saying Dope...
Okay So this dope ass dude has now moved to BLOGGER...
Okay so this is like the first time im posting on this(Blogger)…I said my Tumblr would be dope once i had my background fixed, but as soon as it got fixed I didn’t do anything which is really silly cause I had dreams of this being dope…and now its not DOPE!!Reading the beginning of this blog you would think I say the word DOPE alot, but I really DON’T! I think in my head of using the word DOPE which means cool, but it sounds funny weird when most people in england say it..I Think its an America thing..well it is an American word, talking about America I have big dreams of moving over there..
I do acting well Theatre but its basically acting, study at this Prestigious place they call The BRIT School…might of heard it singers like Adele, Jessie J, Amy Winehouse, Leona Lewis blah blah went there can’t really name any AMAZINGLY Successful actors that went there,but shout out to Nathan Stewart Jarret(Misfits) and Ashley Madekwe(Secret Diary of a Call Girl) because they working to get there, but guess its my job now to change that with a bunch other amazing other people in this talented year group im currently in… Im going to post some more stuff later, and this blog will basically be about my life and acting..and movies and theatre, and tv and follow me on twitter @JayGasAlex
THE END
P.S.
Bare with me this is all freestyle like I don't plan and edit or use fancy notes I'm just a kid saying what he feels..
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