4/03/13
I dream of a brighter day, a brighter post...
I always start with the back pages of a newspaper, football fan so its a must. Reading the
evening standard talking about the demise of Arsenal FC & how bad their current squad is.
I now begin to flick through the paper where I see the advertisement of a programme which I auditioned for starting tonight. See how I once again used the word "auditioned" and as the programme is starting tonight you can most likely guess I didn't get the part, story of my short career so far.
The life of an actor is one that I have come to the conclusion is "not real". I come to this conclusion from my own experiences, these experiences switching back and forth from extreme highs and extreme lows, the word "extreme" will always be associated with actor. The extreme comes from the mistake/risk actors tend to take, having hope. Hope so incredibly large they/we end up believing it will happen and this could be it, the beginning,/the defining moment, when it doesn't happen, as you can imagine the lows are painful to the extent silly thoughts blossom in the mind sometimes silly things are taken for the desperate need to escape. The actor is putting all his/hers/my focus on this career, forcing their way through this invisible barricade and leaving behind the friends, the brothers/sisters they had, not intentionally but assuming they wouldn't be able to understand them now that they have chosen to become an actor.... I remember one casting I had in the early stages of doing this and the casting director said to me I would lose all my friends when trying to break into this industry...oh how he wasn't lying, I seem to have a lot of acquaintances, few friends, few brothers, some have seemed to switch around categories, moving up or moving down.
Once again bare with me, I dream of a brighter day, a brighter post.
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