Moments

The Sounds of Trains going past, the sounds of automated voices informing commuters of train arrivals and departures, the footsteps of commuters pacing themselves to either get trains or coming off a train.... and then there's me, the guy walking around the station with the fattest smile ever. 

So I've completed filming for this episode of a TV show where I'm an episode guest/lead alongside a guest/lead actress. I had never done "proper" screen work and when I found out the intensity, rapidness they filmed this programme that made me even more nervous. Then I found out the actress I was playing alongside and the experience she had, pressure to not be the S**t actor whose s***t cause it's their first job or is just a s***t actor kicked in. I had also made that promise to myself which I posted earlier. 

But it went well I genuinely think it went well. It was a big moment I think for myself to get this role, "The First", but if I was to be brutally honest it was a big moment, a big thing, I think for my family and also for my agent. It was that confirmation that yeah he(being me) can do it. Everyone had faith, but it was a question of how much faith left everyone had(including myself-not much). So yeah it went really well, the first day was tough and by the second day I think i got used to it. The actress I was also playing alongside drew a performance out of me just due to the fact she was so amazing and it was great to work alongside her, it brings your game up and hopefully she feels like I brought her game up.

So now I'm in the stage of my career now where we hope for next job, but we also enjoy the moments shared and created from the last one and we use that to keep faith in our ability. I've also got to be happy, because I see acting as my wife, my lover and we had been apart for too long. 

09/10/13.